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I feel like shit. Shitty shit.
Didn't wake up to my alarm the first 2 hours it was going off inches from my head, but when I did the first thing i noticed was my sinuses were rather congested. That n the time. Called Kristen n told her I could be there in about 30 mins, since it was already almost time for me to pick her up. Went up the stairs, which was hard, legs felt all sorts of weak... and collapsed on the floor of my room. Stayed there a bit, wondering wtf i should do... i was also dizzy, when i stood/moved i felt extremely nauseous, and i just wanted to get stuff done. I realized there was no way I could drive the 40+ mins to work at that time, no fucking way. I was trying to figure out whether it was just from depression/tiredness, because that could always be cured with caffeine/willpower, or whether i should actually stay in bed. In the end i texted Kristen and told her i couldn't do it... and passed back out. woke up at 2 pm (the other stuff was about 8:50-9am) freaking out. I hadn't gotten texts/calls/etc back from ANYONE... and I didn't want to just call the attendance lady at work... i tried calling the team leader, but she wasn't answering. left her a message, then talked w/Kristen on myspace. Apparently she had already been bitched out by the team leader and fired... they threw in her face that the both of us were supposed to be promoted that day, but we're gone instead. Yelled at her. Stupid shit, as if we hadn't given enough to that damn place. Kristen had no ride, and she tried to reach her anyway. Then I got in touch with the other closer... she was like DAMN, wtf? but didn't say anything about what was going on other than people were pissed. Sortly after the team leader finally called and told me she's sorry to hear what happened, but we can come bye and pick up our stuff at any time. And yes, I was set to be moved into accounting that day. But none of it mattered anymore, because we didn't show up n no call. She even told me to not be a stranger in the future... I really got along with her, but... she knew what the place was doing to us all. Enh.
At least I have applications to fill out/turn in. And I called the base about December's drill. I'll have to wait till next drill weekend, but at least they've been reminded... again. And should be able to print up that letter. So I can (maybe?) put in my active duty packet. All is not lost.
I really wanted to go to the show in pomona tonight, but I guess it's just as well. Apparently I'm going to a show in Fontana tomorrow with another neglected friend set. Hopefully I feel well enough to get off my ass and get everything else done that I need to tomorrow, and maybe even finally visit the library again. it's been ages, and FF6 is a poor substitute for a book to fall asleep in, and the Asimov book (the only one in the house that looked remotely interesting and I didn't remember verbatim) isn't quite interesting enough.
I really should cook, but don't feel like it. I think I wanna be taken care of like a little baby right now, but there's no one to do that.
Also, I have become addicted to the birls community on here. It's crack. Between that n cutshort... yeah. And... apparently my little fauxhawkable pixie's pretty stylish. I gotta say... I'm digging it.