I Sorry
to all of my friends here. please understand that i am upset and probably am saying things that i dont mean. if i insulted you im sorry i didnt mean to. i want all of you as my freinds, i really do. im just haveing a hard time and i need to vent. im sorry that all of you are being victimized i dont mean to but i need to get all of this out of my system befor i give up completely. there is nothing worse than a broken will. and right now that is what im fighting to keep hold of. but i need my will to fight and the more i fight the more i spend my will and the further back i slip. if you want to talk to me i would be honored. i think im getting everything straitened out now. i dont know but i think we all will depending on my next entry. what ever that is supposed to mean i dont know. it is sad. my moods have changed so much and so fast in the past few days. i feel like a girl. kinda scary to think about.