knife in my back
i dont know how to say it any other way than that. all of you know that bacca and myself have been having problems with our friendship. i have said somethings that i was joking about and i didnt mean. she has twisted everything that i ever say and getting more and more angry at me. in the past few days things have been looking better for us, and i thought that everything was going to work out. before i was thinking about ending the relationship and how i didnt want to.
tonight she did it for me. she was sitting by herself eating dinner. i was hungry but was going to wait a little to eat. i saw her and felt bad because i hate the thought of eating alone and all of my friends walking past, so i thought that i would eat with her and cheer her up a little. we were talking about our troubles with eachother and i was about to appologize for all of the things that i said that hurt her and explain that it was not my intention. but first i decided to talk about the vibes that i have been getting from her and how she has not seemed happy. her response was no im usually happy (we were talking about her smile and expresions at the time and she was saying that she on a scale from one to five her 2 was like most peoples threes or fours) but not when im around you.....
lightning struck...... ouch
to say the least i feel betrayed to a whole new level. our friedship is officially over, and not by my doing. i want nothing to do with her and i probably wont do anything with the brother sister floor events either. i just need to keep my distance from her.
the sad part is that she sucks everything to her. she hates the thought but she is a huge flirt. i dont want to be mean but she is. this isnt a bad thing but the extreem that she does it she sucks all the attention for anything in the room right to her. i can be talking to a group of people and if she enters the room it is certine that in five min. everyones attention will be on her, and if you are not a part of her disscussion then you dont exist. i have been a shaddow looking for a friend for awhile. and i fear that all the friends i have will be sucked away. i need to talk to people to be happy but i fear that is impossible to achieve at this point in time. i can only hope to survive.
i also have some good news to report about an unrelated topic but that will need to wait.
tonight she did it for me. she was sitting by herself eating dinner. i was hungry but was going to wait a little to eat. i saw her and felt bad because i hate the thought of eating alone and all of my friends walking past, so i thought that i would eat with her and cheer her up a little. we were talking about our troubles with eachother and i was about to appologize for all of the things that i said that hurt her and explain that it was not my intention. but first i decided to talk about the vibes that i have been getting from her and how she has not seemed happy. her response was no im usually happy (we were talking about her smile and expresions at the time and she was saying that she on a scale from one to five her 2 was like most peoples threes or fours) but not when im around you.....
lightning struck...... ouch
to say the least i feel betrayed to a whole new level. our friedship is officially over, and not by my doing. i want nothing to do with her and i probably wont do anything with the brother sister floor events either. i just need to keep my distance from her.
the sad part is that she sucks everything to her. she hates the thought but she is a huge flirt. i dont want to be mean but she is. this isnt a bad thing but the extreem that she does it she sucks all the attention for anything in the room right to her. i can be talking to a group of people and if she enters the room it is certine that in five min. everyones attention will be on her, and if you are not a part of her disscussion then you dont exist. i have been a shaddow looking for a friend for awhile. and i fear that all the friends i have will be sucked away. i need to talk to people to be happy but i fear that is impossible to achieve at this point in time. i can only hope to survive.
i also have some good news to report about an unrelated topic but that will need to wait.