...Because i find myself in you
*If you're missing I will run away/ I will build a path to you/ If you're missing I will runaway/ Because I find myself in you/ If i woke up alone/ I won't stop till I find you/ and you are with me/ Cause by now I know you better than you know yourself/ And I know what you really need/ What you need/ Or I need/ But either way this is where you should be/ Here with me* - Something Corporate
Ahh...well i'm back @ clarion after yet another weekend @ Home. New something corporate lyrics above...i got the new CD, "North." :) it's so so good...i might even like it more than their other ones. I can't stop listening to it :) Ash got herself a copy too.
This weekend was...really good up until sunday. But i won't even focus on that. I picked up ashley downtown on friday night...LIGHT UP NIGHT...haha, w/my dad. Not exactly the first person i'd pick to come along w/me...but i suppose it wasn't a horrible evening. We watched some boys choir sing...listened to a few old black men play the piano and other varios instruments...heard christmas music...etc. Then got ash when she got off work @ 9:00 :) she was so cute, lol...she dressed up as a tree with lights on herself :) hehe but ya...we had a lot of fun on saturday...we went to monroeville mall. I got a new shirt from American Eagle and a new pair of jeans from Hollister. I really like the jeans actually...i wanna get another pair like this pair, only darker. But i know ashley wants a dark pair of those kind, so i'll have to look elsewhere :P ;P Hehe. Then i took her to dinner @ Outback...b/c i told her a while ago i would take her someday...and i know she's really wanted to go so i figured we would go :) That was yummy...after eating shitty school food all week, dinners out are always a treat. Then we went to Media play where we bought our something corporate Cd's :) Seriously...amazing. i really really love it. Then we rented "One Hour Photo" for that night and got some yummy "Deep Dish Apple Pie" icecream :) OVerall, saturday was a lot of fun. OHHHH ANNNND...i called the guy leasing the apts we've been looking into and we are going to check them out this saturday!!!! :) and if we like them, we can sign the lease THAT DAY!!!! he said gettting an apt from may - august is fine...he said normally he doesnt least them out for that short of a period of time...but he said he would, but the rent would go up $100. Soooo all together, it's like $535 a month, plus about $20 for utilities. so it's not THAT BAD. ash said she will have a bunch of money by then...and i'll be getting a job. It's right by Century 3 mall, so i figure i could easily get a job there. or even downtown. b/c the busses come RIGHT to the apt complex. so that's a plus too :) Overall, the apt really does seem perfect...as far as looks, the area, the $, etc. So i guess we'll have to check it out in person now :) I'm really excited...if it all works out, that would be absolutely wonderful. Just me and my girl...
I really don't even wanna get into what sunday was like. I just had another HUGE fight w/my parents - well, my mom. And it was just really ugly...i cried and like flipped out and went insane...and so did she. And all while ashley was there...so i felt HORRIBLE. but she was wonderful, as usual. :sigh: It's so frustrating how my mother has been lately. and sunday, i guess, just pushed us both over the edge. ugh. it really was a nightmare. But...hopefully things got at least a little cleared up through the emails we wrote to each other last night, and this morning. she apologized and said she shouldn't have flipped out and she's really going to work on it...and apologized for embaressing me in front of ashley and made sure i know that she likes ashley and ish appy for us...but she also told me it's been hard lately seeing us together so so much...b/c 1)its still hard for her to get used to the girl/girl thing (understandable...) and 2)she feels left out. So...i just explained some things to her and hopefully made her feel better. SOOOO...let's just hope things settle a bit. i really do think they will. I just don't...want ashley to like...not ever want to come over again. hey, if she didnt, i wouldnt blame her after sunday. But...:sigh: i just...really want things to be okay. ugh. :crosses fingers:
Anyways...i have to end this. i have class in a few minutes - and once again...its RAINING :( big surprise there. I realized my big paper is due like, 2 days after break. and...i havent started on it. it's for english. luckily we have a "library day" today (which is where im going next) in place of class, so we can get started on it. Ugh, i'm screwed...i really don't even know what to DO. Oh well...
Crystal and i are leaving tomorrow around 11:30 or so to go home...and hopefully ashley will be able to get her car tomorrow evening so her and i can go out somewhere together. maybe see a movie or something. :) I can't wait to see her again... :smile:
Ahh...well i'm back @ clarion after yet another weekend @ Home. New something corporate lyrics above...i got the new CD, "North." :) it's so so good...i might even like it more than their other ones. I can't stop listening to it :) Ash got herself a copy too.
This weekend was...really good up until sunday. But i won't even focus on that. I picked up ashley downtown on friday night...LIGHT UP NIGHT...haha, w/my dad. Not exactly the first person i'd pick to come along w/me...but i suppose it wasn't a horrible evening. We watched some boys choir sing...listened to a few old black men play the piano and other varios instruments...heard christmas music...etc. Then got ash when she got off work @ 9:00 :) she was so cute, lol...she dressed up as a tree with lights on herself :) hehe but ya...we had a lot of fun on saturday...we went to monroeville mall. I got a new shirt from American Eagle and a new pair of jeans from Hollister. I really like the jeans actually...i wanna get another pair like this pair, only darker. But i know ashley wants a dark pair of those kind, so i'll have to look elsewhere :P ;P Hehe. Then i took her to dinner @ Outback...b/c i told her a while ago i would take her someday...and i know she's really wanted to go so i figured we would go :) That was yummy...after eating shitty school food all week, dinners out are always a treat. Then we went to Media play where we bought our something corporate Cd's :) Seriously...amazing. i really really love it. Then we rented "One Hour Photo" for that night and got some yummy "Deep Dish Apple Pie" icecream :) OVerall, saturday was a lot of fun. OHHHH ANNNND...i called the guy leasing the apts we've been looking into and we are going to check them out this saturday!!!! :) and if we like them, we can sign the lease THAT DAY!!!! he said gettting an apt from may - august is fine...he said normally he doesnt least them out for that short of a period of time...but he said he would, but the rent would go up $100. Soooo all together, it's like $535 a month, plus about $20 for utilities. so it's not THAT BAD. ash said she will have a bunch of money by then...and i'll be getting a job. It's right by Century 3 mall, so i figure i could easily get a job there. or even downtown. b/c the busses come RIGHT to the apt complex. so that's a plus too :) Overall, the apt really does seem perfect...as far as looks, the area, the $, etc. So i guess we'll have to check it out in person now :) I'm really excited...if it all works out, that would be absolutely wonderful. Just me and my girl...
I really don't even wanna get into what sunday was like. I just had another HUGE fight w/my parents - well, my mom. And it was just really ugly...i cried and like flipped out and went insane...and so did she. And all while ashley was there...so i felt HORRIBLE. but she was wonderful, as usual. :sigh: It's so frustrating how my mother has been lately. and sunday, i guess, just pushed us both over the edge. ugh. it really was a nightmare. But...hopefully things got at least a little cleared up through the emails we wrote to each other last night, and this morning. she apologized and said she shouldn't have flipped out and she's really going to work on it...and apologized for embaressing me in front of ashley and made sure i know that she likes ashley and ish appy for us...but she also told me it's been hard lately seeing us together so so much...b/c 1)its still hard for her to get used to the girl/girl thing (understandable...) and 2)she feels left out. So...i just explained some things to her and hopefully made her feel better. SOOOO...let's just hope things settle a bit. i really do think they will. I just don't...want ashley to like...not ever want to come over again. hey, if she didnt, i wouldnt blame her after sunday. But...:sigh: i just...really want things to be okay. ugh. :crosses fingers:
Anyways...i have to end this. i have class in a few minutes - and once again...its RAINING :( big surprise there. I realized my big paper is due like, 2 days after break. and...i havent started on it. it's for english. luckily we have a "library day" today (which is where im going next) in place of class, so we can get started on it. Ugh, i'm screwed...i really don't even know what to DO. Oh well...
Crystal and i are leaving tomorrow around 11:30 or so to go home...and hopefully ashley will be able to get her car tomorrow evening so her and i can go out somewhere together. maybe see a movie or something. :) I can't wait to see her again... :smile: