processing
I buried you, any feelings I may have had for you so deeply in the recesses of mind that it basically didn't exist. I was really good at it too, at keeping things distant. It was probably some type of defense mechanism because I must've known if I explored it, it would overwhelm me. So when you told me you've also felt more than just friends for me, the floodgates kind of opened. I mean I didn't really even know what was happening to me. When started seeing each other like that, I felt like this is probably what I had kind of always wanted with you. And then you just wanted to stop it and I had all this pent up energy that I had nowhere to put and it unraveled me.
And it's confusing. Where do feelings even come from? Why do I feel like that? Is it from my own brain? Is it because I just don't really care that much for most people?
And it's confusing. Where do feelings even come from? Why do I feel like that? Is it from my own brain? Is it because I just don't really care that much for most people?