An hour and a half and counting.....
Well....I called him. I remembered that he had his 30-minute break at 5:30. So I rang his cellie. He was surprised to hear from me. I talked to him like nothing happened. I was thinking in the back of my head that maybe I was overreacting to what happened earlier today...I do that sometimes.
He was waiting to pick up some hot wings at Domino's, so we chatted while he waited. It was as if we never had a "conflict". I am suddenly realizing that I called him to see if he was gonna apologize for the way he treated me earlier. No such luck. So I quit waiting for one....thinking that I will bring it up later, not wanting him to go back to work mad, affecting his working train of thought(...damn am I caring girlfriend). We were talking about something random but I was doing a lot of listening at the time and not too much commenting. He was like "what's on your mind?". I'm like "not too much". He says "I thought you were still frustrated. You were acting really funny today...but we'll dicuss that later". That set me off. I'M acting funny? I didn't say anything but "I'M acting funny...whatever.....you are the one acting funny...but we'll talk about that whenever". He says "WHATEVER!". And I'm like "yea...whatever". So I told him that I would call him at 11:30 tonight. Actually this was after a couple of blank minutes and idle, useless conversation to get off that really quick and I actually said "I'll call yo trife ass at 11-ish". I laughed after I said that cause we always play like that. He said I hurt his feelings. Damn.....that was not my intention. Why all of a sudden is this not working? We'll fix it though. We have to.
This is why I'm really mad....just in case I didn't make it clear enough. I am talking to him...asking him questions and he is blank....like he doesn't even hear me.It takes me 5 minutes to get him to pay enough attention to me so I can say goodbye because I was leaving to go home. *sighs* He never pays any attention to me anymore. He always tells me that I keep him afloat and that I am the most important thing in his life....but I never see it that way. I know he is on financial strain...so am I....with school and all....but damn....where is the love and compassion that I am told about but never shown.
I can't wait til 11:30....I'll be ready.
He was waiting to pick up some hot wings at Domino's, so we chatted while he waited. It was as if we never had a "conflict". I am suddenly realizing that I called him to see if he was gonna apologize for the way he treated me earlier. No such luck. So I quit waiting for one....thinking that I will bring it up later, not wanting him to go back to work mad, affecting his working train of thought(...damn am I caring girlfriend). We were talking about something random but I was doing a lot of listening at the time and not too much commenting. He was like "what's on your mind?". I'm like "not too much". He says "I thought you were still frustrated. You were acting really funny today...but we'll dicuss that later". That set me off. I'M acting funny? I didn't say anything but "I'M acting funny...whatever.....you are the one acting funny...but we'll talk about that whenever". He says "WHATEVER!". And I'm like "yea...whatever". So I told him that I would call him at 11:30 tonight. Actually this was after a couple of blank minutes and idle, useless conversation to get off that really quick and I actually said "I'll call yo trife ass at 11-ish". I laughed after I said that cause we always play like that. He said I hurt his feelings. Damn.....that was not my intention. Why all of a sudden is this not working? We'll fix it though. We have to.
This is why I'm really mad....just in case I didn't make it clear enough. I am talking to him...asking him questions and he is blank....like he doesn't even hear me.It takes me 5 minutes to get him to pay enough attention to me so I can say goodbye because I was leaving to go home. *sighs* He never pays any attention to me anymore. He always tells me that I keep him afloat and that I am the most important thing in his life....but I never see it that way. I know he is on financial strain...so am I....with school and all....but damn....where is the love and compassion that I am told about but never shown.
I can't wait til 11:30....I'll be ready.