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[drkangelmemnoch]

Broken and bleeding
I know not what I do
Broken and bleeding
pretending to myself that Im actually in love you
Broken and bleeding
I am moving in circles again
Broken and bleeding
I am bound to keep repeating this pain
Broken and bleeding
I see the pattern repeat
broken and bleeding
I hurt and I am hurt by everyone I meet
Broken and bleeding
I fall to my knees and weep
broken and bleeding
this is my living and tortured destiny
I am broken and bleeding
and even more I am cold and numb
I become so use to this feeling
I am silenced, mute and dumb
I am broken and bleeding
I am now to ruined to cry
I want to run and just hide away
to crawl in the proverbial hole and die
Im tired of my existence
I am tired of those who exsist
I try to block them out and try not to listen
but they pester and talk to me, always they persist
Im tired of working with out compensation
I go to hellish jobs every single day
I am worked to weariness day in and day out
and I feel that despite only very little have I gained
I want to just run away
to go where noone knows who I am
to a place that I dont have to pretend to be something Im not
to a place where I can be what I am
I want to meet brand new people
to have friends and never be forgot
where I am not persecuted for for not worshiping under a steeple
where I can be happy for all the things I got
I want to escape this mundane existence
I want to leave it far behind
I want to just up and disappear
I want to go to that place in my mind
the place where I am happy
the place where I never have to cry
to the place I can stay for as long as I want
and I never have to say goodbye
I am broken cold bleeding and lost
I am the product of my own demise
I have reaped the benefits and now I must pay the cost
can you look at someone and see the pain from their eyes
I am the embodiment of that hurt,the living breathing soulless pain
I have given up on this fight
I know I can never be the same again...