Fustration and stress is begining to make its way into my mind!
There's one thing that i've noticed during my two months being here... well more than two depending on how you look at it. N e ways, the thing i noticed is that most of the stuff i did in high school was complete bullshit. Nothing i ever learned in high school has been applied here. Oh correction, my year with ms. niederpreum is probably the closest to what i'm being taught here. My writing is no where up to speed as it was in high school. The stuff i would basically get an A with is really worth an F. On level classes suck in high school! their only intent is to get you out of their class with as little effort as possible. Thanks to my three years of on level classes and classes that didn't care about sentence structures and shit like that, i am now struggling to keep up to par. jesus everyone here has taken either honors courses or have gone to advanced schools and i didn't do anything like that till my last years of high school. Typically i'd blame myself but no! I'm sorry i couldn't get into honors all four years of high school, i had my chances and i took them and failed to get in. If the teachers actually gave me a chance to take their classes then i'd probably wouldn't be the level i am now. AHH! its only the second month in and already im stressed out with trying to keep up with everything. I've had a total of 3 essays as A's, a couple of B essays, and a shit load of D essays. Some of which my professors were being much too generous. JESUS! THIS FUCKING SUCKS! Curse writing for grades! That will be the death of my college career.
*Sigh* Oh well, i had my share of good teachers... but the rest of my teachers didn't teach me jack shit. I literally passed with little effort at all. AHH! what's done is done, nothing i can do about it now. Right now i have to focus on working my ass off to learn from the rather large amount of mistakes and confusion to fix my little problem j ust to get to the level of the average student here. God, my professors are incredibly brutal.... i wish my teachers in high school was like that when it came to writing and literature... or english class in general! If they were then i wouldn't be in the position that i am right now! GOD!
*Sigh* Oh well, i had my share of good teachers... but the rest of my teachers didn't teach me jack shit. I literally passed with little effort at all. AHH! what's done is done, nothing i can do about it now. Right now i have to focus on working my ass off to learn from the rather large amount of mistakes and confusion to fix my little problem j ust to get to the level of the average student here. God, my professors are incredibly brutal.... i wish my teachers in high school was like that when it came to writing and literature... or english class in general! If they were then i wouldn't be in the position that i am right now! GOD!