In order to form a more perfect union...
I want to try to have a differant aproach to my writing here. Through the course of a day I couldn't begin to explain the way my mind functions. I like to try to be a bit more coherant in general. Maybe if I can isolate it here it will spill over. Maybe not.
I am constantly frustrated with what I see is a lack of vision in most people. When I see a story in the news or a new invention I see (or I at least like to think so) a new facet or way to percieve the whole of my existence. Something as large as a new energy source or as small as a new flavor of ice cream. I am constantly trying to revamp my perceptions and never have a "solid" opinion or view or anything. I have never studied Buddhism but one thing written on the car of a dead friend has stuck with me "Believe in nothing". I don't think this to be as nihilistic as many might. To believe is to define. To bring it into the world of the concrete and inarguible. This is not to say I do not lean towards ideas or concepts but to say that given enough logical contradictory evidence I might do at least a 90 degree turn if not a 180. Faith to me is a four letter word.
This has probably caused me the greatest pain in my life in various differant manors. Confidence, being based on conviction, is one of the great tenants that we hold on high in our society. In a world of confusion, doubt and fear we gravitate towards those that seem the most sure of themselves. Like moths to a flame to be trite. Any idea or person no matter how flawed can attract the attention of many by the shear force of the will behind it. This could be considered an extention of Edison's quote on inspiration vs. perspiration. I can not stand behind anything that is inherantly flawed, especially myself. I have often been critized for being a dreamer (read Do-nothing) and entirly unrealistic. I could agree and do agree often when I start to believe. Unfortuantly I would rather still stand in the cold alone then give up my eyes and heart.
I have a somewhat inverse agruement as to how belief and the strength of ones convictions are actually the only true componants of ones reality but one spasm at a time.
I am constantly frustrated with what I see is a lack of vision in most people. When I see a story in the news or a new invention I see (or I at least like to think so) a new facet or way to percieve the whole of my existence. Something as large as a new energy source or as small as a new flavor of ice cream. I am constantly trying to revamp my perceptions and never have a "solid" opinion or view or anything. I have never studied Buddhism but one thing written on the car of a dead friend has stuck with me "Believe in nothing". I don't think this to be as nihilistic as many might. To believe is to define. To bring it into the world of the concrete and inarguible. This is not to say I do not lean towards ideas or concepts but to say that given enough logical contradictory evidence I might do at least a 90 degree turn if not a 180. Faith to me is a four letter word.
This has probably caused me the greatest pain in my life in various differant manors. Confidence, being based on conviction, is one of the great tenants that we hold on high in our society. In a world of confusion, doubt and fear we gravitate towards those that seem the most sure of themselves. Like moths to a flame to be trite. Any idea or person no matter how flawed can attract the attention of many by the shear force of the will behind it. This could be considered an extention of Edison's quote on inspiration vs. perspiration. I can not stand behind anything that is inherantly flawed, especially myself. I have often been critized for being a dreamer (read Do-nothing) and entirly unrealistic. I could agree and do agree often when I start to believe. Unfortuantly I would rather still stand in the cold alone then give up my eyes and heart.
I have a somewhat inverse agruement as to how belief and the strength of ones convictions are actually the only true componants of ones reality but one spasm at a time.