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its been a while since ive layed awake with someone in the dark for hours listening to music with extended moments of silence knowing we are both thinking the same thing at once. a new level of comfort im trying to tell myself to be okay with despite all the moments i freak out and moments ive woken up embraced and feeling like im getting myself in to something too deep for me to handle. im constantly trying to convince myself that things are casual..but where does it cross the line from casual to not so casual. when does it get to the point where you stop considering yourself only and actually have to worry that your actions can hurt someone else's feelings. i will admit its nice to be able to actually talk about life without being judged, without feeling like i should be ashamed of my life or something. yet why does it come at a time when im trying to move away or determine whether i really want to stay. too many decisions for an indecisive girl.
other things going on...aside from trying to figure life out, im going home for my sister's 21st birthday and bryan is coming with me. i am looking forward to hanging out on LI like old times, and it will be nice to actually get to hang out rather than when he was here on my bday and i had to study for most of it.
i believe tina and i are making a trip to chicago for ms. laura's birthday in october. im also trying to fit my trips to colorado and california in somewhere. all of this is difficult without a steady job but i guess thats what graduation money is for.
other things going on...aside from trying to figure life out, im going home for my sister's 21st birthday and bryan is coming with me. i am looking forward to hanging out on LI like old times, and it will be nice to actually get to hang out rather than when he was here on my bday and i had to study for most of it.
i believe tina and i are making a trip to chicago for ms. laura's birthday in october. im also trying to fit my trips to colorado and california in somewhere. all of this is difficult without a steady job but i guess thats what graduation money is for.