x i'll be there for you, cause you've been there for me too...
i love those nights, those nights where everything ends up just seeming perfect...no matter what happens. you know those nights where you can be doing absolutely nothing, just driving around in circles or in a room full of people you don't even know but you end up having the time of your life. that was saturday night. oh my god. it was amazing...i havent felt that infinate in soo long. the funny thing is all it took was going back to the people that were there all along to be happy. and the best part of the night wasnt the party itself, it was the running through backyards with my best friends, avoiding the cops, speeding off in jenns car and driving around in circles, sprinting into pizza hut to only use the bathroom and then sprinting out while the people working there looked at us like we were crazy, which really we were...and then the phone call....
that night would have been awesome even if he hadnt called me, but him calling made it soo much better. not that we had some deep meaningful talk or anything...in fact i'm a little iffy on what we even talked about...i remember a story about a stripper, attempting to pick up his friend tj, laughing, and the i miss yous, and "i'm just calling to say hi" "hi." haha i love that boy to death. i just wish he wasnt two hours away...bahhh how am i supposed to make it work when he's that far away?? i don't know if thats what i want, to be honest the only i thing i know when it comes to him, is i love him and i would drop anything to be there for him. but i have no idea what i want 'us' to be...i just know i miss him more then i've ever missed anything or anyone in my life, and probally more than i will miss anything or anyone ever again.
and i yes i miss erik...i miss him sooo much, but it doesnt even come close to how much i miss ty...which is funny in a way because most people who looked at my life would have said that i should miss erik more...but really, i fell in love with ty...and as much as i love erik as a best friend, or a brother...he isnt ty....but still, i want next year to get here and i want a job at blue...and i want to move two hours away from this town that always seems to bring me down, i want to be with the two people who never fail to make me smile, and never fail to pick me up when im down...the two people who have never judged me based on any stupid mistake i ever gave, and the two people who have told me since day one that i deserve better. besides...they need me too....who else are they gonna lean on? i'm it...i'm their family.
funny isnt it? my two best friends come from two of the most dysfunctional families i've ever met, and yet i have probally the closest thing to that tv family thats ever happened...i almost never fight with my parents or my brother...my parents have been married for over 25 years and they almost never fight...they both work but we still have family dinners every sunday....i guess ty and erik loved that about me, and they kinda became part of my family...my parents took them in too, and i dont know...as much as i love my family...its like i know theyll be okay without me...where as i dont think those boys will be....
that night would have been awesome even if he hadnt called me, but him calling made it soo much better. not that we had some deep meaningful talk or anything...in fact i'm a little iffy on what we even talked about...i remember a story about a stripper, attempting to pick up his friend tj, laughing, and the i miss yous, and "i'm just calling to say hi" "hi." haha i love that boy to death. i just wish he wasnt two hours away...bahhh how am i supposed to make it work when he's that far away?? i don't know if thats what i want, to be honest the only i thing i know when it comes to him, is i love him and i would drop anything to be there for him. but i have no idea what i want 'us' to be...i just know i miss him more then i've ever missed anything or anyone in my life, and probally more than i will miss anything or anyone ever again.
and i yes i miss erik...i miss him sooo much, but it doesnt even come close to how much i miss ty...which is funny in a way because most people who looked at my life would have said that i should miss erik more...but really, i fell in love with ty...and as much as i love erik as a best friend, or a brother...he isnt ty....but still, i want next year to get here and i want a job at blue...and i want to move two hours away from this town that always seems to bring me down, i want to be with the two people who never fail to make me smile, and never fail to pick me up when im down...the two people who have never judged me based on any stupid mistake i ever gave, and the two people who have told me since day one that i deserve better. besides...they need me too....who else are they gonna lean on? i'm it...i'm their family.
funny isnt it? my two best friends come from two of the most dysfunctional families i've ever met, and yet i have probally the closest thing to that tv family thats ever happened...i almost never fight with my parents or my brother...my parents have been married for over 25 years and they almost never fight...they both work but we still have family dinners every sunday....i guess ty and erik loved that about me, and they kinda became part of my family...my parents took them in too, and i dont know...as much as i love my family...its like i know theyll be okay without me...where as i dont think those boys will be....