All that means nothing just shadows the moon across the wall
I have come to the conclusion that i really miss what i had exactly a year ago. All the emotions, scents, and the people. I didn't even have the opportunity to carve my pumpkin this year, thats a bit depressing. Crew is so time consuming, good thing its over till february. I found a dress i would like to purchase, unfortunately i have no money which mean no dress. I will get that dress. I just haven't figured out how yet. I have no voice. Literally. I miss being able to sing. I miss being able to speak with important people. I miss those people. You know, the important ones. Everyone i was super close with i haven't seen in an extremely long time. Im have major Evan withdrawal. I haven't spoken with him in so long. I think im finally beginning to live in the present. Mostly because i realize i need to keep my school work on top. Which probably sounds extremely dull, but all i can really do right now is coast along. I only feel one thing that will actual last, that will be remembered or always felt, and i have to contain that so im just drifting. im getting things done when i have the opportunity, and so far things have been going extremely smoothly. Ive lost the majority of my stress and i am beginning to feel relieved and feel like everythings going to be amazing, and everything i really want will work out, no matter how much ive fucked it up. Life is going to be amazing. Im not going to let it be any less than that. It will all be worth.