Who am i and what do i want?
So while i sat with the boys at steak-n-shake tonight listening to matt's ipod, i realized that i am not through with abercrombie, but i am. I love the personality he displays despite the fact that people think he is nothing but a tool. It was the personality that matched mine to a tee. Sex was great, his face and body were outstanding, but the games and craziness, i don't know. But then there is someone else. Someone that i am begining to like. Someone who i can never have, and shouldn't ever have. It would be wrong. But its not someone i just want for sex, and i should because i don't possibly see any way that he could possibly have a good personality, but i want him just the same. I don't know if i could just have sex with him and leave it at that despite the recent finding that i am a "WHORE>" Ouch, Burn. Yea it hurts, becaue you know i thought that i was overcoming my past but i have been recently been shown wrong. I have been shown that people can't grow into new people. but whatever. So i had jake for 2 1/2 months, never cheated, then there was cj and i would have stayed faithful to him and did, but he ended it shortly after it began, and then there was abercrombie, who i have now been with for 5 months and totally 100% faithful to him but yet i am still a whore. YEAH IT FUCKING HURTS LETS STOP THROWING IT MY FACE DIANA!!! So this person i don't know what to do about him, i don't know wether to try and pursue it or not? Oh when does school start so i can have something to do and prove to everyone that i am more than they think. "My brain's reapeating, if you've got an impulse let it out, but they never make it past a month."