your heart gives mine reason to beat...
i cant sleep. i fell asleep last night @ like 1 am and i woke up at 5:30 this morning. i dont know why. i guess i just have a lot on my mind. college is out of the way i guess. i decided on holy cross. prom is in 10 days, oh man thats a lot closer than it sounds, yea and everything is still up in the air. me and my friends dont plan things out which i hate cuz then i stress out about whats happening and what not and i just dont know what to do. the whole situation with whats happening after prom is still chaos cuz we dont know whos doing what and its just a mess. i dont know.
the past month or 2 have been a roller coaster of emotions and everything i could possibly imagine has happened. chris c. left for the airforce and apparently is getting married. i dont really know why that bothers me so much. maybe its cuz hes getting married to luceila, the girl he cheated on me with, or maybe i still have feelings for him....more than i realized i had. ehhh. guys in general stress me out and confuse me. just when you think they are different than any other guy and that they really care, they dont. they are the typical guy and only see a girl as something they wanna fuck. unfortunately im attracted to those assholes, typical guy and i hate it. but i cant help who i like.
so i had my ap spanish test today and yea that didnt go as well as i thought. the listening part was boring and the announcements kept interrupting it so we couldnt really hear it. and it didnt help that i didnt get enough sleep so i fell asleep during the listening part which is really bad. i woke up and i had 1/2 an hr to read like 7 passages in spanish and answer questions and i only got up to number 55 and they went up to 75, so that was bad. and then for the speaking part i paniced and couldnt really think of answers so i didnt really answer them so that was great. uhh. and then ap physics next monday, i dont even have hope for cuz i suck at physics this year and i dont try which is worse, but im over it. theres no more chance with me.
after school i went to the mall with shannon and got my second holes done =)
and my mom is currently not speaking to me lol. i feel bad but my dad said i could do it and my mom just makes a big deal about it and i know she'll get over it. i had shannon hold my hand as i got them done haha. yea im a big baby but its ok.
so i was talking to shannon today about her moving and what not, and i dont want her to move. i dont wanna go to college. i dont want to go to a new place where i wont know people, and not be able to see my friends everyday. im gonna miss shannon fay. and its sad thinking that i wont be driving around with her every morning and afternoon, and going to work together, and waiting for her to get out of work so that we can drive around aimlessly and rock out and pretend to be gangsters and look for hot boys down winthrop beach lol. =( shannon laura fay, im gonna miss ya kid, i dont know what im gonna do without you in college. this makes me sad. but i no longer want to think about it.
things are just going by way too fast. high school flew by, and prom seemed so far away but its not, and graduation is june 7th and its only 1 month away. thats just crazy. to think, 4 years went by like it was nothing, and it seemed like it was taking forever at first, but now its just not slowing down. as much as i might say that i hate this place, and i wanna get away, im gonna miss it no matter what. im done.
the past month or 2 have been a roller coaster of emotions and everything i could possibly imagine has happened. chris c. left for the airforce and apparently is getting married. i dont really know why that bothers me so much. maybe its cuz hes getting married to luceila, the girl he cheated on me with, or maybe i still have feelings for him....more than i realized i had. ehhh. guys in general stress me out and confuse me. just when you think they are different than any other guy and that they really care, they dont. they are the typical guy and only see a girl as something they wanna fuck. unfortunately im attracted to those assholes, typical guy and i hate it. but i cant help who i like.
so i had my ap spanish test today and yea that didnt go as well as i thought. the listening part was boring and the announcements kept interrupting it so we couldnt really hear it. and it didnt help that i didnt get enough sleep so i fell asleep during the listening part which is really bad. i woke up and i had 1/2 an hr to read like 7 passages in spanish and answer questions and i only got up to number 55 and they went up to 75, so that was bad. and then for the speaking part i paniced and couldnt really think of answers so i didnt really answer them so that was great. uhh. and then ap physics next monday, i dont even have hope for cuz i suck at physics this year and i dont try which is worse, but im over it. theres no more chance with me.
after school i went to the mall with shannon and got my second holes done =)
and my mom is currently not speaking to me lol. i feel bad but my dad said i could do it and my mom just makes a big deal about it and i know she'll get over it. i had shannon hold my hand as i got them done haha. yea im a big baby but its ok.
so i was talking to shannon today about her moving and what not, and i dont want her to move. i dont wanna go to college. i dont want to go to a new place where i wont know people, and not be able to see my friends everyday. im gonna miss shannon fay. and its sad thinking that i wont be driving around with her every morning and afternoon, and going to work together, and waiting for her to get out of work so that we can drive around aimlessly and rock out and pretend to be gangsters and look for hot boys down winthrop beach lol. =( shannon laura fay, im gonna miss ya kid, i dont know what im gonna do without you in college. this makes me sad. but i no longer want to think about it.
things are just going by way too fast. high school flew by, and prom seemed so far away but its not, and graduation is june 7th and its only 1 month away. thats just crazy. to think, 4 years went by like it was nothing, and it seemed like it was taking forever at first, but now its just not slowing down. as much as i might say that i hate this place, and i wanna get away, im gonna miss it no matter what. im done.