woah
its crazy. its been over 2 months since i last came on this thing. and since then a lot has changed. i dont go out with chris anymroem cuz i got tired of always crying over him. i liked someone else but no need to touch on that. im always with shannon and this is the first time that i can say that i actually know that someone is there for me because she does care alot about me and worries and im glad that i have a friend like her.
im never home anymore just have and my parents get mad but i hate it here. i dont talk to any of my family and when i do i just end up fighting with them. my mom was supposed to take me to go look at prom dresses today but that didnt happen cuz by the time she came home it was too late for us to go cuz its crazy on a saturday and i have work at 1 so i would have to leave at like 12 and there would just be no point in going. and then my mom started crying saying that no one appreciates her and i feel bad but theres nothing i can do. i love my mom but i dont get along with my family, im just not close to them.
so tonight im supposed to be going out but i dont know how thats gonna work cuz after that i doubt ill be able to go anywhere. but whatever. i just want to get away form here. far away as possible and i dont think rhode island or amherst is far enough. i would much rather go to some place far liek cali but my dad already said no to that idea. i just want to go to college and do my own thing without having anyone on my back about it and i just want to get out of this fucking city and start fresh in some place where i dont know anyone and no one knows me meaning that i cant get hurt. and i can start something new and just move on.
im never home anymore just have and my parents get mad but i hate it here. i dont talk to any of my family and when i do i just end up fighting with them. my mom was supposed to take me to go look at prom dresses today but that didnt happen cuz by the time she came home it was too late for us to go cuz its crazy on a saturday and i have work at 1 so i would have to leave at like 12 and there would just be no point in going. and then my mom started crying saying that no one appreciates her and i feel bad but theres nothing i can do. i love my mom but i dont get along with my family, im just not close to them.
so tonight im supposed to be going out but i dont know how thats gonna work cuz after that i doubt ill be able to go anywhere. but whatever. i just want to get away form here. far away as possible and i dont think rhode island or amherst is far enough. i would much rather go to some place far liek cali but my dad already said no to that idea. i just want to go to college and do my own thing without having anyone on my back about it and i just want to get out of this fucking city and start fresh in some place where i dont know anyone and no one knows me meaning that i cant get hurt. and i can start something new and just move on.