The tug from some invisible hand…
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Okay, so I guess I should update this thing after the lovely cliff-hanger of a post from yesterday eh?
.We found a way for me to fast track through high school.
.During this time, I plan on taking classes of sorts. Classes churches offer. I’m hoping there isn’t an age limit. I don’t see why there would be, but yea. Anywho…since, oddly enough, I- the shyest person ever- feel very called to speaking, and starting a ministry of my own in the future, I’ll be able to put more focus on that instead of school. Still doing school and graduating, but since I don’t feel as though I’ll be involved in anything where that would come in as a key-role, I might as well be doing something that WILL play a key role you know?
.After many months of sheer confusion, and after like…three hours of talking to my mom yesterday morning, we both felt very strongly at the end of the conversation that Mexico just wasn’t for me. I want to go, I think it would be fun, but I honestly don’t have the passion for it that I feel as though I should have, and my mom could see the same thing. She’s noticed it for the past few months, as have I, but she didn’t want to say anything to sway me either way. But yea- like I said, I think it’d be great to go, but my heart wasn’t in it in the deeper sense that I really need it to be. It’d be a great time, and doing something amazingly good, but if that’s not where I’m meant to be, while I may get something out of it, I feel I’d miss something better here.
What is that something? I honestly believe that something is the classes I hope to start taking soon. Everything just clicked. It was the craziest 3 hours in a long time. At the end of it, I was completely excited, and was actually very happy with my Mexico decision. Like I said, I’d really like to go, I think it would be a great time, but I don’t want to miss out on what God has for me here so I can go have fun.
I feel really, REALLY good about things. I feel as though I’ve finally not only seen my calling, seen my future, but I’m so excited about getting things started. Start working on it. I always figured I’d kind of waste away these next two years while trying to get through high school, and THEN start things.
No way.
Things are starting now…er…um…as soon as I can *find* those classes lol, that shouldn’t be too hard though, anywho- like…I’ve been given the most amazing opportunity. I can start my future now, at 16, instead of waiting to get out of high school.
Not to mention, I stayed up all day yesterday- so my sleep is completely normal now.
When God moves in a life, He really rages through and makes things right. He answered three prayers in three hours (school,mexico,future) AND gave me the energy to stay up all day, this fixing my sleep.
Yea…I’ve basically been beaming ever since!