Failure
I think often on the topic of failure. Some of the most defining moments in my life are failures. Like not making it through RIP. To this day I regret that. I regret that I let myself get shuffled into an office, where I never got to do my job. I've rationalized it to myself by saying that the Army knows what it wants me to do. And I'm not as full of fire as I was when I was 18. But sometimes I think about trying again. I get emails from SF/Ranger recruiters all the time. I know it's not because of my "experience". I met certain searchable criteria, like Age, rank, and time in service. But still, it makes me think. Could I go from being a pencil pusher to a real Soldier again? Do I want to? It's hard to go from shuffling paperwork to running and gunning. Should I try again? Or will I get over this feeling that I failed, and it's something that will haunt me for the rest of my life? There are other events that I look back on and wonder if I had tried harder, if I had gone a little bit further, how different my life would have turned out.
Pro Patria
Pro Patria