hmmm
On Saturday I went to my grandmother's funeral.. my dad's mom. I used to spend a lot of time with her when I was younger, but I rarely saw her in the past... 10 years it's probably been. Still, it was pretty hard seeing her and have my dad break down next to me. I'm glad I got it out, and I'm glad that I had closure. It was nice to see all my relatives on that side of my family. It was a sad occasion, but at least there was something positive that came from it.
Today was horrible. I had things to do, my car's alternator went out so it wouldn't start, and my parents weren't cooperating with me. I can't stop thinking about miranda. I hope I don't built up some kind of resentment for her. I feel what she did to me was cold and I want to tell her, but what's the point? I want to talk to her and tell her how I feel, and ask her some things but it'll probably make things worse. I just keep thinking about her, and that she's probably off with whoever....even if they are friends although I doubt they're just that. It's like I beat myself up mentally. Maybe I should just call her.. it's hard to decide. We haven't talked for about 2 weeks and I haven't heard from her or seen her online. I hope it doesn't continue like this.
I don't want to go back to school either. If I knew there was something for me out there, I'd drop out and persue it.
Hmmm... the joys of youth.
Today was horrible. I had things to do, my car's alternator went out so it wouldn't start, and my parents weren't cooperating with me. I can't stop thinking about miranda. I hope I don't built up some kind of resentment for her. I feel what she did to me was cold and I want to tell her, but what's the point? I want to talk to her and tell her how I feel, and ask her some things but it'll probably make things worse. I just keep thinking about her, and that she's probably off with whoever....even if they are friends although I doubt they're just that. It's like I beat myself up mentally. Maybe I should just call her.. it's hard to decide. We haven't talked for about 2 weeks and I haven't heard from her or seen her online. I hope it doesn't continue like this.
I don't want to go back to school either. If I knew there was something for me out there, I'd drop out and persue it.
Hmmm... the joys of youth.