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Ahhh, the one place i can count on to bitch about anything and not have a single person i bitch about comment on it...lol.
I hate the fact that i can't say anything abou anyone any more. I mean, i use to comment and talk so much crap about people, still do, but not outloud.
If you know me, you how much i love my family and how i would give my life for them, but they are the ones that hurt me the most. Especially Marisol.
She is only 14 and i so want to be able to hate her sometimes. I just want to call her out on her shit and make her eat it all up. She is sweet when she wants to something, i've noticed that. She plays the victim, with me so i can talk shit about some one or somebody, then she'll turn around and complain about what i said. i honestly don't understand her. I've tried hanging out with girls my age without, and it's like i'm doing something wrong, my mom won't let me use the car unless she is with me...wtf is that about? Honestly.
The reason i don't want marisol around me is because she is 14 and i'm 24 going on 25, i want to be able to act my age. I've stopped drinking, i've stopped doing drugs, the people i hang out with now are all church going people and all we do is go out to hang out with other church people...come on! what more can u ask for? I'm trying not to change, be a better person, but how can i if no one will help out by, atleast keeping their mouth shut.
I'm just tired of it all. I'm tired of marisol's childish ways and how i'm the one always taking care of her and no one else, my mom is a part time mom, only watching after her, when she gets a minute or two between the stupid phone calls of bf. Ohhhh, now that's another topic, that boils my blood. My mom bitches about her life being a mess, that she works her ass off and see's nothing from it...hmmm. She has never stopped to look at where she is messing up. She is dating/seeing and married man. She know he's married, she knew he was married, she was seeing him, when SHE was married. God will punish us for sinning and knowing that we are sinning and not do anything about it. Hello! u keep askig why ur life is messed up? Have you seen how you are messing up?! Omg! she wants respect, she doesn't let me say suck, or damn in front of her, "it's a matter of respect" she says. Someone tell me how am i suppose to respect someone the does all the above? what kind of example are you? UGH!
No wonder marisol is so damn spoiled, my mom has to make it up to her in some way, why not buying her off. Juan is an emotional wreck, Josh hides his true feelings by working full time, going to church, going to to school full time. He keeps himself so damn busy so he won't have the time to deal with the drama. I'm so freakin' emotional stressed, i'm a freakin drama queen, as someone called me, because i'm sorrounded by drama.
Ha! my mom says it's not her fault..omg! it totally is, and i just realized it.
Now don't get me wrong i love my mom, i honestly do, but i don't respect her ways. but unfortunately i have to deal with it. Hopefully not for long.
Well here i conclude my ranting and raving. Post later.
I hate the fact that i can't say anything abou anyone any more. I mean, i use to comment and talk so much crap about people, still do, but not outloud.
If you know me, you how much i love my family and how i would give my life for them, but they are the ones that hurt me the most. Especially Marisol.
She is only 14 and i so want to be able to hate her sometimes. I just want to call her out on her shit and make her eat it all up. She is sweet when she wants to something, i've noticed that. She plays the victim, with me so i can talk shit about some one or somebody, then she'll turn around and complain about what i said. i honestly don't understand her. I've tried hanging out with girls my age without, and it's like i'm doing something wrong, my mom won't let me use the car unless she is with me...wtf is that about? Honestly.
The reason i don't want marisol around me is because she is 14 and i'm 24 going on 25, i want to be able to act my age. I've stopped drinking, i've stopped doing drugs, the people i hang out with now are all church going people and all we do is go out to hang out with other church people...come on! what more can u ask for? I'm trying not to change, be a better person, but how can i if no one will help out by, atleast keeping their mouth shut.
I'm just tired of it all. I'm tired of marisol's childish ways and how i'm the one always taking care of her and no one else, my mom is a part time mom, only watching after her, when she gets a minute or two between the stupid phone calls of bf. Ohhhh, now that's another topic, that boils my blood. My mom bitches about her life being a mess, that she works her ass off and see's nothing from it...hmmm. She has never stopped to look at where she is messing up. She is dating/seeing and married man. She know he's married, she knew he was married, she was seeing him, when SHE was married. God will punish us for sinning and knowing that we are sinning and not do anything about it. Hello! u keep askig why ur life is messed up? Have you seen how you are messing up?! Omg! she wants respect, she doesn't let me say suck, or damn in front of her, "it's a matter of respect" she says. Someone tell me how am i suppose to respect someone the does all the above? what kind of example are you? UGH!
No wonder marisol is so damn spoiled, my mom has to make it up to her in some way, why not buying her off. Juan is an emotional wreck, Josh hides his true feelings by working full time, going to church, going to to school full time. He keeps himself so damn busy so he won't have the time to deal with the drama. I'm so freakin' emotional stressed, i'm a freakin drama queen, as someone called me, because i'm sorrounded by drama.
Ha! my mom says it's not her fault..omg! it totally is, and i just realized it.
Now don't get me wrong i love my mom, i honestly do, but i don't respect her ways. but unfortunately i have to deal with it. Hopefully not for long.
Well here i conclude my ranting and raving. Post later.