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I woke up having a good day, it was cold as hell, but i was having a good day until i recieved a call from some and realized that well i should channel all my anger on something, i'm so sad and disappointed and instead of sitting here crying about it i'm going to use it as my motivation, i'm going to move on with my life, i'm no longer going to put it on hold, no one is worth it, not even him. I was had decieded to say good bye to my friends, but why should i, they've been there for me in there own way. I'm just going to use all that anger and focus on getting skinny, even if it kills me, i need to feel good about my self, i need to raise my own head and with gods help i know i will.
I really don't want to hate him, i really do love him, but i'm angry at him for making feel guilty for his mistakes. Josh said my relationship was like cancer, slowly killing me, and it's true, and well the recovery process is long and it will be painfull, but i know at the end i will come out of it alive and well. It's all in gods hands now and i'm moving forward, all i ask is for god to send me an angel...lol...NOT! i'm not about to trust another man in what will be a very and i mean very long time.
Well off to download more songs.
I really don't want to hate him, i really do love him, but i'm angry at him for making feel guilty for his mistakes. Josh said my relationship was like cancer, slowly killing me, and it's true, and well the recovery process is long and it will be painfull, but i know at the end i will come out of it alive and well. It's all in gods hands now and i'm moving forward, all i ask is for god to send me an angel...lol...NOT! i'm not about to trust another man in what will be a very and i mean very long time.
Well off to download more songs.