This week has sucked... my schedule has been one big train wreck and for once it is not my fault (yeah i know im usually late for stuff, but it gets to be a big prob for me when someone else makes it so that im late and i have no control over that!). Prolly the thing that made my week tho had to be a dinner "date" and shopping with Matt (ie
mistertaylor).
For a while i really felt that I had lost touch with one of my good friends from High School, i think we had just really grown apart and sometimes that just happens (i keep in touch with maybe 2 of my friends from hs, we have just changed too much). But i think that the post college "what the hell am i going to do with my life and im living with my parents" dillema has brought be closer with a handful of people, not just matt. I have been feeling really anxious and discouraged lately when it comes to work, money, career. I really look out there at all those people, making more money then me, the people who decide my fate and being like "how do i become them? how do i get in control in charge of my future." In all truth im in charge of my future only to a point i suppose, i cant wake up tomorrow as CEO of a multi billion dollar industry... anyways im digressing.
Getting to sit down and have dinner with matt was very uplifting, not just for the fact of getting to see an old friend was being able to speak my mind, my concerns, and not really have someone that could offer me any real answers, but rather just some understanding as it was something he was facing on his own. I think that these next few years will be the most difficult of the rest of my life, just trying to find a place, fit in, become happy and successful is going to take a ton of thought, focus, and drive.
Time for bed!