Late night thoughts...

[dreamydevon]

A good friend is drunk and passed out on my couch, i didnt go out tonight (jokingly i told her because i knew she would need me to be there as a friend). She will be fine, i worry less about others these days and more about myself.

Its began, senior year that is. In the past few days i have felt very different, in ways i cant really seem to grasp on my own. I just feel... different. More concerned about the future, about my money, about my friends and life in general. Ive met a really sweet girl even and i just cant seem to settle into my feelings for her. Its like everything is up in the air (not to mention that i have to register for all my classes and most are closed) its like anxiety and overwhelmedness....

i dont have to go out every night, i dont have to drink till i pass out... all i really want to be honest is a few friends to hang out with, someone to engage me in deep conversations... a friend to share dreams with, and someone to take out (and take me out) for a night on the town.

Im tired of wasting away my life... in a few short months things will be way different whether i like it or not, my life will have to change, but how :-/