I wonder???

[dreamwalker1964]

Have you ever wondered why you've done what you've done, when you've done it. For example, ever wonder why you had children? Or wonder why you've chosen who you've chosen? What I'm wondering right now is why did I ever make the decision to have children. All mine ever do is find new ways to break my heart, new ways they can hurt me, new ways to make me miserable. All I"ve ever done since the day they were born was to presume to put them first. I guess it was my mistake to think that by doing so, it would earn me their respect. It was my mistake also to think that working hard, and providing for them would earn me anything but contempt from them. It really seems that no matter how hard I try, no matter how hard I work, no matter what I sacrifice for them, it just really isn't enough for them.

What does it take to earn your child's respect? What is it I have to do? I wish I knew what it took to do so. maybe it would be best to just give up, no matter what I do, they'll never respect it. Hey that's an Idea? YEah right, me give up, I'm too much of a fool to do so.

Teenage daughters are the bane of any parent's existance. They do nothing but break your heart repeatedly, they openly defy, they intentionally hurt you repeatedly. Hell, teenage daughters? Might as well add in those teenage sons. For you see I have one of each. It seems they enjoy taking turns to see who can hurt and disrespect me more. I just wish I knew what to do.... and hell if I don't stop right now, I'm going to have a soggy keyboard.