things not happening as planned
Awww, that's nothing new, Nothing ever goes as I plan it.... so I should have remembered the lesson I learned a long time ago, don't plan anything, just go with the flow, and if it happens, good, if not, not disappointed. I still love Tony, can't think of anything that would change that. I just wish.......... nah, better not go there. Once a thought is voiced, it can't be taken back. I'm trying for patience and understanding, but I have a feeling I'm falling short somehow. I'm learning not to voice my opinion unless directly asked about it. I'm letting those with things they need to deal with, deal with them, without any input from me, unless I'm asked. Maybe I'm, not even the best person to give opinions, because mine are always skewed by my own experiences. And my experiences have never been the easiest to get through. I've done for myself, and my kids, without asking for any help, not getting any either. Maybe I'm hard-hearted, cold, etc .... but some people should be careful what they ask for, they just may get it.... I did, and I dealt with it.... no one to lean on, no one to depend on, except for myself. I do have to say though, that the experience has made me stronger, less judging of myself, Less critical of myself, More confident that I can accomplish anything, I have and I will continue to do so. As much as I hate to say it, Richard doing what he has, has made me realize that I can do whatever it is I put my mind too.
I try to not hold others up to the standards I hold myself, but I know I fail in that regard. I try very hard, but I can't help thinking that if I can do it, then so can everyone else.
But at this point I don't see certain things happening when or as planned. But I'm just going to adopt a wait and see attitude, nothing else I can do at this point. I'm not going to bring it up anymore, I won't push the issue. If it happens, then wonderful, and if not.... that's good too.
yes I know, seems like I'm talking in code, maybe I am, I don't have a clue.
I try to not hold others up to the standards I hold myself, but I know I fail in that regard. I try very hard, but I can't help thinking that if I can do it, then so can everyone else.
But at this point I don't see certain things happening when or as planned. But I'm just going to adopt a wait and see attitude, nothing else I can do at this point. I'm not going to bring it up anymore, I won't push the issue. If it happens, then wonderful, and if not.... that's good too.
yes I know, seems like I'm talking in code, maybe I am, I don't have a clue.