theres a light in me that shines brightly and they can try but they can't take that away from me...
*I drove for miles and miles and I wound up at your door. I've had you so many times but somehow I want more. I don't mind spending everyday out on your corner in the pouring rain, look for the girl with the broken smile and ask her if she wants to stay a while* my heart is full and my door is always open, you can come anytime you want.* I know where you hide all alone in your car, I know all of the things that make you who you are. I know that goodbye means nothing at all*
its a reallllly gorgeous night right now. Its raining and it smells so good and I love the sound of rain at night. Its so soothing. =) No work for me til thursday. Thats sorta exciting. Unless someone asks me to cover for them which I obviously will cuz I need to work like a mad woman. Only 25 more days til florida and I'm gonna need a lot of money to go down there with incase we have to put down a deposit and what not. Eeek I am sooo excited. I can't believe I am really doing it. How long have I been saying this for? I was talking to joey today, about a lot of stuff, and we were talking about how gay things are between us right now, now that I'm moving and I was like well I don't really HAVE to move, I know I just need to. and he was like no you definitely have to you've been wanting this ever since I've known you. And I thought about it for a second and that really is so true. I've wanted to move to florida for like well over 5 years. And I was supposed to move the summer after I graduated and then joey came into my life and I stayed. and now that I really am doing it, things between us are so fucked uppp. its sorta gayer than aids. But I'm a true believer that what is meant to be will always find a way. We hung out tonight, it was fun. Sorta just like old times. I'm like whyyyyy is this happening right now. but ok this whole entry is not gonna be dedicated to joseph like the past few have been hahaa. I really go off on a tangent when I talk about that boy. sooo what else is newww lets seeeeeeee. this weekend was sorta entertaining. thursday ryan and his cousin kyle and missy and kristen came over then we went to missys and got stoneddd. it was fun. I hadn't gotten high in foreverrr. then friday nite I worked and missy picked me up and we went to her house and went in the hot tub which was wiicked relaxing. I wish I had a hot tub. Then last nite went to north attleboro to a party and it was clearly a shitshow. Ridiculous. I peed in my moms room at 530 this morning if that explains anything? haha yikes. I was talkin to kelley on the phone and my mom comes home and is standing in my doorway shaking her head and I'm like what and she was like umm when your off the phone you need to get the carpet cleaner and clean my rug and I was like why and shes like cuz you peed on it at 530 this morning. I was like ooo wow thats ridiculous. yup note to self don't drink 7 blueberry ales on an empty stomach. oh yeah and I won 20 bucks on a scratch ticket last nite!! I was so excited. Then today I did absolutely nothing all day. It was such a lazy day. I had a pounding headache for most of it. so that was cool. its 1:39 and I am not tired like at all. Why am I an insomniac. Sucks wicked bad. I love listening to cheesy music. hahaha I'm such a loser sometimes its fiiiine. alright well I really have nothing else to write right now, so I am gonna end this pointless entry here. =) goodnight lovies