Some more thoughts today!
I have really given a lot of thought about my life and where I am. Ya know what - major revelation! I am happy! I am fortunate as I am healthy, have a great husband, great friends, a good job, a beautiful new condo... So, what is there not to be happy about? Nothing, absolutely nothing.
We all have a choice when we wake up... to make it a great day or a crappy one. I am embarrassed to admit that I have made far too many crappy ones for no reason (well, at the time I thought I had good reasons!)...
I wasn't making enough money, I wasn't losing weight fast enough, I was tired, cranky or angry, or something else... All of this negative thinking is not good or the soul at all. It brings you down, it brings the people around you down. I know for myself when I am down, I go down hard. It's hard to get back out of it. I spiral and spiral and make things worse.
Something hit me the other day.... why have all crappy days? why not have good days, great days and out of this world days? The only one that determines that is me. So, why am I allowing myself to be miserable? Ya know what? I didnt have a reason. I am a smart person, why was I being so dumb?
I decided that moving forward I would be happy. I would do whatever it takes to make myself happy. I would examine my inner self and determine what was sabotaging my efforts; the triggers, the fears and the root causes. I will overcome this self doom... I will be a better person.
I am going to be 35 (well, 34 and counting), healthy, active, determined, strong and playing football for the first time in my life. Too old? Nope! My life has just begun a rebirth.
We all have a choice when we wake up... to make it a great day or a crappy one. I am embarrassed to admit that I have made far too many crappy ones for no reason (well, at the time I thought I had good reasons!)...
I wasn't making enough money, I wasn't losing weight fast enough, I was tired, cranky or angry, or something else... All of this negative thinking is not good or the soul at all. It brings you down, it brings the people around you down. I know for myself when I am down, I go down hard. It's hard to get back out of it. I spiral and spiral and make things worse.
Something hit me the other day.... why have all crappy days? why not have good days, great days and out of this world days? The only one that determines that is me. So, why am I allowing myself to be miserable? Ya know what? I didnt have a reason. I am a smart person, why was I being so dumb?
I decided that moving forward I would be happy. I would do whatever it takes to make myself happy. I would examine my inner self and determine what was sabotaging my efforts; the triggers, the fears and the root causes. I will overcome this self doom... I will be a better person.
I am going to be 35 (well, 34 and counting), healthy, active, determined, strong and playing football for the first time in my life. Too old? Nope! My life has just begun a rebirth.