Fanmix - The Center of a Blast Radius (Owen Harper)
Title: The Center of a Blast Radius
Subject: Owen Harper
Fandom: Torchwood
Warnings: Spoilers through "Exit Wounds". Dark themes.
Notes: My take on one Dr Owen Harper, as told through songs in chronological order, to deal with different parts of both his life and his death.
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A BETTER SON/DAUGHTER {rilo kiley}
// your mother is still calling you insane and high
swearing it's different this time
and you tell her to give in to the demons that possess her \\
"Adam", Owen's relationship with his mother
DUTCH COURAGE {the spill canvas}
// ten bucks says you don't have it in you
to conquer fear and quit believing what they tell you to
you are careening shamelessly into oblivion
you will live alone with your chemicals and gin \\
"Everything Changes"
TAKE IT EASY (LOVE NEVER) {bright eyes}
// now I do as I please, and I lie through my teeth
someone might get hurt, but it won't be me
I should probably feel cheap, but I just feel free
and a little bit empty \\
"Ghost Machine", hunting down Ed Morgan and, in the end, trying to save him; on a larger scale, his escapism and all that it entails
GOODNIGHT AND GO {imogen heap}
// we'll have drinks and talk about things, any excuse to stay awake with you
you'll sleep here, I'll sleep there, but then the heating may be down again
at my convenience
we'd be good, we'd be great together \\
"Countrycide", the affair with Gwen
HIT THE SWITCH {bright eyes}
// and I start attacking my vodka, stab the ice with my straw
my eyes have turned red as stoplights, you seem ready to walk
you know I'll call you eventually, when I wanna talk
'til then you're invisible \\
Through "Countrycide" to the end of his and Gwen's affair; it's equal parts unhealthy
THE GOOD THAT WON'T COME OUT {rilo kiley}
// all of the good that won't come out of me
and all of the stupid lies I hide behind
it's such a big mistake
lying here in your warm embrace \\
"Out of Time", Owen & Diane
SCIENCE {the birthday massacre}
// I'm not the only one who's bleeding
before the past gets done repeating
gets underneath my skin, it won't die
this time if I can't win, then I won't try to carry on \\
"Out of Time" & "Combat", Diane's leaving and the aftermath, snowballing tragedies
WIRES AND WAVES {rilo kiley}
// and sometimes planes
they just smash up in the sky
and sometimes lonely hearts
just get lonelier \\
"Out of Time", "Combat", "End of Days" - Owen after Diane
TAKING CONTROL {eisley}
// you've been taking control of our lives
and you've been letting us go
you've been taking control of our lives
and we won't take it when you won't take it, no \\
"End of Days", Owen against Jack
SECOND-HAND FAITH {emilie autumn}
// 'cause this feeling of forgiveness means much more to me
than that paper on the wall that cost you all of ten bucks
if an ancient word, a heathen spell can salvage me
I will believe in miracles, 'cos it would take a saint to set me free \\
"End of Days"
SIGNAL FIRE {snow patrol}
// in the confusion and the aftermath
you are my signal fire
the only resolution and the only joy
is the faint spark of forgiveness in your eyes \\
post-"End of Days", Jack's forgiveness
A CURE {emilie autumn}
// instrumental \\
"Kiss Kiss Bang Bang", Jack's return
ACCIDENTAL DETH {rilo kiley}
// there's blood spilled on the floor
everyone's staring at you -- what for?
'till you realize the blood is probably yours \\
"Reset", Owen's death
BLOOD BEATS {moving unit}
// like a car crash in the brain
see the fog lights in the rain
things are different when you're dead \\
"Dead Man Walking", Owen adjusting to life being dead
BURN YOUR LIFE DOWN {tegan and sara}
// you wake up in the night
and refuse to be afraid of it now
unfolding pieces of it faster
don't you waste your time
you've been planning to remember
so nothing will be lost in the end
when you burn, burn, burn your life down \\
"A Day in the Death", Owen removing everything from his flat that reminds him he was alive - burning his old life away
SELF-CONCLUSION {the spill canvas}
// "excuse me sir, but I have plans to die tonight
oh, and you are directly in my way, and I bet you're gonna say it's not right"
my reply: "Excuse me, miss, but do you have the slightest clue
of exactly what you just said to me, and exactly who you are talking to?" \\
"A Day in the Death", Owen and the girl on the roof
DIE ALONE {ingrid michaelson}
// I never thought I could love anyone
but you...
but you make me think that maybe I won't die alone
maybe I won't die alone \\
"Reset" & "Something Borrowed", Owen and Tosh
COLD {emilie autumn}
// instrumental \\
"Exit Wounds"
Subject: Owen Harper
Fandom: Torchwood
Warnings: Spoilers through "Exit Wounds". Dark themes.
Notes: My take on one Dr Owen Harper, as told through songs in chronological order, to deal with different parts of both his life and his death.
{ download the .zip! }
A BETTER SON/DAUGHTER {rilo kiley}
// your mother is still calling you insane and high
swearing it's different this time
and you tell her to give in to the demons that possess her \\
"Adam", Owen's relationship with his mother
DUTCH COURAGE {the spill canvas}
// ten bucks says you don't have it in you
to conquer fear and quit believing what they tell you to
you are careening shamelessly into oblivion
you will live alone with your chemicals and gin \\
"Everything Changes"
TAKE IT EASY (LOVE NEVER) {bright eyes}
// now I do as I please, and I lie through my teeth
someone might get hurt, but it won't be me
I should probably feel cheap, but I just feel free
and a little bit empty \\
"Ghost Machine", hunting down Ed Morgan and, in the end, trying to save him; on a larger scale, his escapism and all that it entails
GOODNIGHT AND GO {imogen heap}
// we'll have drinks and talk about things, any excuse to stay awake with you
you'll sleep here, I'll sleep there, but then the heating may be down again
at my convenience
we'd be good, we'd be great together \\
"Countrycide", the affair with Gwen
HIT THE SWITCH {bright eyes}
// and I start attacking my vodka, stab the ice with my straw
my eyes have turned red as stoplights, you seem ready to walk
you know I'll call you eventually, when I wanna talk
'til then you're invisible \\
Through "Countrycide" to the end of his and Gwen's affair; it's equal parts unhealthy
THE GOOD THAT WON'T COME OUT {rilo kiley}
// all of the good that won't come out of me
and all of the stupid lies I hide behind
it's such a big mistake
lying here in your warm embrace \\
"Out of Time", Owen & Diane
SCIENCE {the birthday massacre}
// I'm not the only one who's bleeding
before the past gets done repeating
gets underneath my skin, it won't die
this time if I can't win, then I won't try to carry on \\
"Out of Time" & "Combat", Diane's leaving and the aftermath, snowballing tragedies
WIRES AND WAVES {rilo kiley}
// and sometimes planes
they just smash up in the sky
and sometimes lonely hearts
just get lonelier \\
"Out of Time", "Combat", "End of Days" - Owen after Diane
TAKING CONTROL {eisley}
// you've been taking control of our lives
and you've been letting us go
you've been taking control of our lives
and we won't take it when you won't take it, no \\
"End of Days", Owen against Jack
SECOND-HAND FAITH {emilie autumn}
// 'cause this feeling of forgiveness means much more to me
than that paper on the wall that cost you all of ten bucks
if an ancient word, a heathen spell can salvage me
I will believe in miracles, 'cos it would take a saint to set me free \\
"End of Days"
SIGNAL FIRE {snow patrol}
// in the confusion and the aftermath
you are my signal fire
the only resolution and the only joy
is the faint spark of forgiveness in your eyes \\
post-"End of Days", Jack's forgiveness
A CURE {emilie autumn}
// instrumental \\
"Kiss Kiss Bang Bang", Jack's return
ACCIDENTAL DETH {rilo kiley}
// there's blood spilled on the floor
everyone's staring at you -- what for?
'till you realize the blood is probably yours \\
"Reset", Owen's death
BLOOD BEATS {moving unit}
// like a car crash in the brain
see the fog lights in the rain
things are different when you're dead \\
"Dead Man Walking", Owen adjusting to life being dead
BURN YOUR LIFE DOWN {tegan and sara}
// you wake up in the night
and refuse to be afraid of it now
unfolding pieces of it faster
don't you waste your time
you've been planning to remember
so nothing will be lost in the end
when you burn, burn, burn your life down \\
"A Day in the Death", Owen removing everything from his flat that reminds him he was alive - burning his old life away
SELF-CONCLUSION {the spill canvas}
// "excuse me sir, but I have plans to die tonight
oh, and you are directly in my way, and I bet you're gonna say it's not right"
my reply: "Excuse me, miss, but do you have the slightest clue
of exactly what you just said to me, and exactly who you are talking to?" \\
"A Day in the Death", Owen and the girl on the roof
DIE ALONE {ingrid michaelson}
// I never thought I could love anyone
but you...
but you make me think that maybe I won't die alone
maybe I won't die alone \\
"Reset" & "Something Borrowed", Owen and Tosh
COLD {emilie autumn}
// instrumental \\
"Exit Wounds"