[16 of 100] Revisions Sucks
Today has been a deeply hard day in the land of this particular dissertator.
I have this chapter draft. I have helpful comments from my advisor. I have a recording of the helpful conversation I had with my advisor last month. When I read the notes, or listen to the recording, I feel like I have a very clear picture of what needs to happen with this draft. I have a sense of calm, and peace.
Then today, for the nth day in a row, I sat down again to try and actually implement those changes and I just got completely stuck. I wrote words and deleted them. I moved paragraphs around and then moved them back. I tried to open a new document, I tried to write by hand, I spent time with index cards trying to come up with a new order for paragraphs.
I might have a few new sentences that are better than the ones they replaced, but overall, I don't really feel like I got anywhere today. And I tried really hard. I focused. I shut off the computer. I read through notes. I had study halls--multiple of them! It sucked.
Tish is going to read for me, and I have a session set up for next week with one of my co-tutors at school who I know and trust. I'm wielding all the resources and techniques I can.
And it's hard, and I'm very tired and frustrated now.
I have this chapter draft. I have helpful comments from my advisor. I have a recording of the helpful conversation I had with my advisor last month. When I read the notes, or listen to the recording, I feel like I have a very clear picture of what needs to happen with this draft. I have a sense of calm, and peace.
Then today, for the nth day in a row, I sat down again to try and actually implement those changes and I just got completely stuck. I wrote words and deleted them. I moved paragraphs around and then moved them back. I tried to open a new document, I tried to write by hand, I spent time with index cards trying to come up with a new order for paragraphs.
I might have a few new sentences that are better than the ones they replaced, but overall, I don't really feel like I got anywhere today. And I tried really hard. I focused. I shut off the computer. I read through notes. I had study halls--multiple of them! It sucked.
Tish is going to read for me, and I have a session set up for next week with one of my co-tutors at school who I know and trust. I'm wielding all the resources and techniques I can.
And it's hard, and I'm very tired and frustrated now.