Feb 14, 2005 23:48
Ed Garrity (sp?) is AMAZING. i felt so good about myself after his assembly thing, and everything he said was so true and so right and his advice, while it was so general, it was also so incredibly...exact, like exactly the advice i needed.
i wish he was my personal mentor and he could just give me an inspirational speech like that every morning.
i felt EXCELLENT (haha) the whole day, until about an hour ago. i didnt know i could feel so much hatred or anger. it scared me. i dont feel excellent anymore. i feel stupid, worthless, like a bad person, and this is EXACTLY the negativity Mr. Garrity was talking about that i have to get rid of, so i did. i told that negative energy that i hate them and after that i didnt let whatever they said bother me. im starting to feel better. i really hope they have a good, happy, successful, healthy life. i truly do. and i dont hate them, hate is way too strong, its just a "i dont need your negative energy bringing me down anymore" type of thing. i dont care if they dont know any of this, or appreciate it, i dont expect gratitude for it. its just how i feel.
i need to surround myself with more positive people. but for now i have to concentrate on that one last negative person, and how to get rid of their negative energy, but im not sure whats holding me back.
okay i heart ryan cohen and josh shapiro(even though he thinks hes black) and daniel diaz they are the gorgeous boys of drivers ed that just make life THAT MUCH BETTER! there are others but those 3 are my favorites :-D
jay was mean and stole my answer today i knew the answer so i raised my hand but he called out and got all the glory. psh. i knew it way before he did.
MY BIRTHDAY IS IN 13 DAYS! what should i do for it? party? small dinner? i cant decide. and i have oh so many people i want to celebrate with but if i have a party i cant have more then like 20-25 and my list is like 35 people and it sucks someone give me advice.
okay i need to study for math. peace.