[[This year may be better than the last]]
Again, I'm not sure where to start. There's a lot and nothing running through my head.
I want to go philosophical -- not emo.
I had one two minute bullshit conversation today that didn't involve school with someone.
For all intensive purposes, I haven't talked to anyone since I got back. It's this weird yet comfortable sense of isolation that comes from not socializing. It's weird. I'm in the world and going through the day but I have no social interaction with the faces that pass by me every day. Honestly, I don't think one ever really knows how much even the tiniest bit of social interaction impacts them day by day. When I was in highschool I felt alone but I always had someone to talk to face to face. If only even my parents. Now I'm seeing what it's like to truly be alone...but somehow alone in a world full of people. It's odd. I'm not complaining, mind you, it's just an interesting observation that I've picked up on.
I'm not sure what to think about life right now.
For some reason I have no motivation to do my assignments when I have no reason not to do it because my current assignments are actually kind of fun.
I just feel like sleeping. I have a lot of that to catch up on. It's funny...down here I don't have the time to sleep but when I'm back home I don't want to close my eyes because I don't want to miss a single moment that could be filled with something really fun and interesting.
I guess I just felt like an update...
I want to go philosophical -- not emo.
I had one two minute bullshit conversation today that didn't involve school with someone.
For all intensive purposes, I haven't talked to anyone since I got back. It's this weird yet comfortable sense of isolation that comes from not socializing. It's weird. I'm in the world and going through the day but I have no social interaction with the faces that pass by me every day. Honestly, I don't think one ever really knows how much even the tiniest bit of social interaction impacts them day by day. When I was in highschool I felt alone but I always had someone to talk to face to face. If only even my parents. Now I'm seeing what it's like to truly be alone...but somehow alone in a world full of people. It's odd. I'm not complaining, mind you, it's just an interesting observation that I've picked up on.
I'm not sure what to think about life right now.
For some reason I have no motivation to do my assignments when I have no reason not to do it because my current assignments are actually kind of fun.
I just feel like sleeping. I have a lot of that to catch up on. It's funny...down here I don't have the time to sleep but when I'm back home I don't want to close my eyes because I don't want to miss a single moment that could be filled with something really fun and interesting.
I guess I just felt like an update...