What's Happening?

[dreamlilly]

Well, The kids should be bringing Gloria home from the hospital today. It's been rough for my daughter-in-law. She has severe postpartum depression. They've started her on Zoloft. She's very worried. She is a worrier anyway so this has escalated that big time. Her mom came to help her arriving the night before she was to go in for surgery. They have a strange relationship because of the past. Her mom didn't raise her and only later in life they became closer. She tends to throw money and advice at whatever problems arise. What her daughter really wants is just her love. Because of the depression, thee has been so much tension between my son and my daughter-in-law (DIL). I talked with them and they were very receptive. My son is feeling a lot of pressure too. My DIL's mother is leaving tonight. This makes my DIL very sad because she wants her mom to stay longer and help her since she is feeling so bad. Her mom has her own business and is away frequently. She could stay but she won't. My son will be there, his dad and stepmom are coming for a few days on Fri. I'm hoping they can take care of things until the 18th. That's when I get a 2 week holiday. I don't have a sub at work so when I'm gone the work just doesn't get done. I have 3 personal days though so if I have to I can take two more.

Me, I am deling with my own feelings too. I have fucked myself pretty good by once again procrastinating. This time it has a serious consequence. I will write more about that later. I have drafted a letter to try to the two agencies that hold my certification and my licenser. I want to post them and ask if you would edit and make suggestions. All of this could have been avoided if things were submitted in a timely manner, before the due dates. I am a chronic procrastinator. I am trying very hard to not beat myself up as that does no good.