I need some relief
The pressure of everything has really begun to weigh down on me. I feel it heavy on my shoulders and wish it would go away. I've been seriously considering quitting my job and finding another one. I need a change. I'm ready to have money already, quit my job, and just focus on school. I must admit I've lost a lot of my motivation from earlier this semester. I just need things to shake up a bit. I hate routine. I want adventure and fun, I want inspiration and thrill. And right now, I feel like I'm stuck in an empty room with gray walls all around me. I want to scream.
The pressure and struggle is beginning to build inside me and every time a glimpse of my to do list flashes in my mind, my stomach sinks and I feel that ugly, guilty feeling. How can I possibly get out of this rut? How do I shake things up without doing something stupid like quitting my job and losing my scholarship.
I'm really dissappointed in myself. I wanted so much to keep up the high energy and great motivation that I had at the beginning of this semester. But I feel it all slipping through my fingers now. I'll need to do much meditating to bring my spirit back up to where it was a few months ago. Maybe I just need to get away for a bit. Spring break just wasnt enough. I need to go somewhere with solitude so I think about everything I'm working for, everything I want and hope for, and everything I need to do to get there. As for right now, I'm not going to worry about anything. Just enjoy my night off of work and worry about everything else tomorrow.
The pressure and struggle is beginning to build inside me and every time a glimpse of my to do list flashes in my mind, my stomach sinks and I feel that ugly, guilty feeling. How can I possibly get out of this rut? How do I shake things up without doing something stupid like quitting my job and losing my scholarship.
I'm really dissappointed in myself. I wanted so much to keep up the high energy and great motivation that I had at the beginning of this semester. But I feel it all slipping through my fingers now. I'll need to do much meditating to bring my spirit back up to where it was a few months ago. Maybe I just need to get away for a bit. Spring break just wasnt enough. I need to go somewhere with solitude so I think about everything I'm working for, everything I want and hope for, and everything I need to do to get there. As for right now, I'm not going to worry about anything. Just enjoy my night off of work and worry about everything else tomorrow.