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damn.. i cant breath. i feel like my body is so weak and im bein crushed.. god it hurts.. and im shaking so bad. i dont know what it is!?!?!?! im freakin out! i told my mom and she said its probably the pollen.... umm.. wtf?
anyways, i took so many pills today, i think thats what it is. y do i have to be so damn sick all the time?
so ive been thinking alot about going to a cousilor or something...i started looking in the fone book at some and also considered the guidance cousilor at school.. im still debating.
i havent cut since, last friday! go me! this is the longest i have gone in a while...today i seriously was about to, tho, cuz i was feeling so depressed and me n my cousin got in a huuuuge fight and i felt like i was ruining everyones lives.. but as i put the blade against my skin, i started to cry and i couldnt stop...i sat there like that for almost 20 minutes until finally i just curled up and fell asleep crying...
i went to unc wilmington yesterday! omfg... i loooove that school! i really want to go there.. it was the best ... and i was talkin to this really cute guy on the tour and he invited me to go to the all american rejects concert there next weekend.. ihope i can go! *crosses fingers!*
stay strong beautifuls! lotsa love, <3 lexi
anyways, i took so many pills today, i think thats what it is. y do i have to be so damn sick all the time?
so ive been thinking alot about going to a cousilor or something...i started looking in the fone book at some and also considered the guidance cousilor at school.. im still debating.
i havent cut since, last friday! go me! this is the longest i have gone in a while...today i seriously was about to, tho, cuz i was feeling so depressed and me n my cousin got in a huuuuge fight and i felt like i was ruining everyones lives.. but as i put the blade against my skin, i started to cry and i couldnt stop...i sat there like that for almost 20 minutes until finally i just curled up and fell asleep crying...
i went to unc wilmington yesterday! omfg... i loooove that school! i really want to go there.. it was the best ... and i was talkin to this really cute guy on the tour and he invited me to go to the all american rejects concert there next weekend.. ihope i can go! *crosses fingers!*
stay strong beautifuls! lotsa love, <3 lexi