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These holiday's I've found that things don't always go my way. Uni is over for now and I have a lot of free time on my hands. So Dream-Chan will write out some stream of consciousness that were writen yesterday when the internet was spoiled.
I got the idea for this by reading 'Dancing on Knives' by Jenny Pausacker. I like the idea of stream of consciousness writing when we just write down whatever we are thinking or experiencing. I'll add this to my LJ later.
Listening to this song 'Awake' is calming. It relaxes me. I'll try looking it up now that the internet is working. I smell pasta. I like pasta, but I want to try different kinds.
I wonder why "nics" represent ourselves so well. Mine show my strange personality, interests and ideas. Others can tell you what kind of person the other one is. But interpreting them isn't something that I'm good at. I am what people would call obvious. Obvious to the world, people, feelings, agendas. It's a weakness.
Another weakness is my obsessiveness. I obsess about things and become moody when it doesn't go my way. I'm selfish in that regard. I don't know when this selfishness started, but I don't think it can end just yet.
Just had dinner. Hated being interrupted just before I started eating, but I also hate being interrupted at ant other time, same old same old.
Some songs have great meaning, like that Nickelback song. I like Nova (radio station) because it plays all of the recent and popular songs. I like that. I'm a music hoarder. I collect songs. I listen to them, love them and perpetuate them. I listen songs/musicians that I normally wouldn't have. This is thanks to the internet. I love the internet yet it is a fickle thing that only listens when it chooses to at times. (it's good now but for how long?...)
Life makes you wonder. There are many different people in the world and their triumphs and tragedies are all part of large web of that encompasses all of life and all of those who live in it. I wonder what colors the web would be in. I would love to see it, yet I am not a God.
Also I've been thinking that in some ways wanting is like a disease, isn't it? You want and want until consumes you and then you become someone you don't recognize. I want, mum once wanted and almost lost what she had, dad wants and follows it no matter what it does to himself or others. Wanting can be a bad thing. It can also be a good thing however, it's just how you use it and what it's aimed at.
This summer Dream-Chan has done a lot of things. I've babysat twice with Elysia (it was the first time I had babysat before), I went on what could be termed an "Adult Holiday" and bought and tried wine for the first time. I bought several games, books, movies, and an anime DVD set with my Christmas/Birthday money.
I had Elysia over for a few days in a row around New Years Eve, we watched the fireworks on TV. It was the first time I was able to spend New Years with Elysia. I like changing habits.
Dream-Chan should apologize. I last updated at the end of October and this entry is in early February. I think that Summer laziness has gotten to me. I promise to try harder.
Recently Dream-Chan was taken to meet one of mum's once co-workers and his family. The meeting was at a restaurant that I like and I got too eat one of my favorite desserts, YUM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
My family is definitely planning to move. I've seen them look up houses both physically and on the internet. I feel odd about it. I've lived in the house I am in for about 10 years now. It'll be hard to move now.
Dream-Chan is soon going to do something daring. Yay for me!
This should be all for now as I don't feel the need to make a long entry, just consistent ones.
Dream-Chan.
I got the idea for this by reading 'Dancing on Knives' by Jenny Pausacker. I like the idea of stream of consciousness writing when we just write down whatever we are thinking or experiencing. I'll add this to my LJ later.
Listening to this song 'Awake' is calming. It relaxes me. I'll try looking it up now that the internet is working. I smell pasta. I like pasta, but I want to try different kinds.
I wonder why "nics" represent ourselves so well. Mine show my strange personality, interests and ideas. Others can tell you what kind of person the other one is. But interpreting them isn't something that I'm good at. I am what people would call obvious. Obvious to the world, people, feelings, agendas. It's a weakness.
Another weakness is my obsessiveness. I obsess about things and become moody when it doesn't go my way. I'm selfish in that regard. I don't know when this selfishness started, but I don't think it can end just yet.
Just had dinner. Hated being interrupted just before I started eating, but I also hate being interrupted at ant other time, same old same old.
Some songs have great meaning, like that Nickelback song. I like Nova (radio station) because it plays all of the recent and popular songs. I like that. I'm a music hoarder. I collect songs. I listen to them, love them and perpetuate them. I listen songs/musicians that I normally wouldn't have. This is thanks to the internet. I love the internet yet it is a fickle thing that only listens when it chooses to at times. (it's good now but for how long?...)
Life makes you wonder. There are many different people in the world and their triumphs and tragedies are all part of large web of that encompasses all of life and all of those who live in it. I wonder what colors the web would be in. I would love to see it, yet I am not a God.
Also I've been thinking that in some ways wanting is like a disease, isn't it? You want and want until consumes you and then you become someone you don't recognize. I want, mum once wanted and almost lost what she had, dad wants and follows it no matter what it does to himself or others. Wanting can be a bad thing. It can also be a good thing however, it's just how you use it and what it's aimed at.
This summer Dream-Chan has done a lot of things. I've babysat twice with Elysia (it was the first time I had babysat before), I went on what could be termed an "Adult Holiday" and bought and tried wine for the first time. I bought several games, books, movies, and an anime DVD set with my Christmas/Birthday money.
I had Elysia over for a few days in a row around New Years Eve, we watched the fireworks on TV. It was the first time I was able to spend New Years with Elysia. I like changing habits.
Dream-Chan should apologize. I last updated at the end of October and this entry is in early February. I think that Summer laziness has gotten to me. I promise to try harder.
Recently Dream-Chan was taken to meet one of mum's once co-workers and his family. The meeting was at a restaurant that I like and I got too eat one of my favorite desserts, YUM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
My family is definitely planning to move. I've seen them look up houses both physically and on the internet. I feel odd about it. I've lived in the house I am in for about 10 years now. It'll be hard to move now.
Dream-Chan is soon going to do something daring. Yay for me!
This should be all for now as I don't feel the need to make a long entry, just consistent ones.
Dream-Chan.