I miss you...all I want to do is be close to you...
Holy wow..it's like...theoretically Tuesday....so yea..it's been a while since I've said something in here. Hmm..actually life has been boring...but when isn't my life boring.
ha ha..anyway...so the only thing I just seem to not be able to get rid of is my stupid coughing and throat problems - that's it. Well and I seem to have hot and cold flashes or cold sweat sometimes..but it's not as bad as the other two things.
Something is seriously stuck in my throat, and just won't come out unless..I..well..yea..how do I say it? umm..pray to the porcillan goddess upstairs, and I really hate doing that. So I'm not sure what to do.
In better news, I did go to classes today, and my ESEC teacher is amazing and letting me have as much time as I need to make up the work. She saw me in class and said:" Wow Jen you still look sick, just take care of yourself, and don't rush yourself, get it the work into me when you can." Yeah..I'm happy about that. I'm going to try to get the Lesson Plan done for Wednesday, and do the other project this weekend.
I should probably read some Holocaust chapters before bed tonight, since I have a quiz on Wednesday.
::sigh:: I really need to tone down my priority for prettyenough___. I try to be all over it, yet I should be focusing on my schoolwork more. grrrrr I really hate myself sometimes. It's like everything now a days is a distraction to me, and I thought with being back on my meds would fix that. Maybe my body does need to get used to them again, and I just need to stop distracting myself with everything. hmpf..I don't want to be sick and tired of school just yet...eventhough sometimes I swear that's what's going on.
Marc wasn't feeling good this evening, so he went to bed early. -_- I hope he's not catching what I had....ugh. Still I miss him already. Summer needs to be here now...so I can finally see him, however I'm getting worried. I keep thinking of when I can see him, and then I don't know what to do, because I want someone to come with me. Marc insists that he's paying for my plane ticket...so if I go by plane, who ever comes with me has to get money for that too. Plus I need money for the hotel room for us. So if I do that it's going to have to wait till at least the beginning of August, and I don't want to wait that long.
I know his mom said it would be okay for him to come here, if he went to my house, and my mom said it's okay with her. But there is again just one problem - I really don't live at home anymore. Well I do..but especially starting may I really won't, since we'll have the house in Keene. Plus it's not like I can go home for a few days, so he can come over, because one week after this semester gets out, I start my next semester for the summer where I have to take two classes, plus I'll be working. I know I can take a week off from work, so then I'd just have to go to class...but if I have class I can't be at home so Marc can come.
ugh I just want this to work, so Marc and I can finally meet and see if what's there between us online, is also the same in person. I just want to know...Yes of course I'm scared that when we meet we may not click like that, I know that we'll still be friends, but with Marc however...the fact that there are just soo many things that already make us click online, really makes me hope that maybe I'll really get lucky this time. It's like we talk sooo much, and just want to see each other so badly, and hug each other...the sound of having to wait another 5 or so months seems forever. ::sigh:: it really does..
I wish we'd get another vacation break besides Spring Break...I really do.
Anyway..I know I've been meaning to post the wacko high convos I had last week..and I will..eventually, but I'm just sorta down...so here are some pics coz I felt like it..
This is actually me last Wednesday, my face temp was so hot, that I was trying to cool myself off on the cold wall, yet I'm still wearing a sweater because I was freezing..yeah I was sick.
...hope you liked them
So that's it...I'm going to bed now..too late to read. Gonna go cuddle and sleep and hopefully dream of something nice and happy with Marc, coz I miss him. Comment away..leave some coz it cheers me up..
*huggles* and love you!
night night everyone ♥
ha ha..anyway...so the only thing I just seem to not be able to get rid of is my stupid coughing and throat problems - that's it. Well and I seem to have hot and cold flashes or cold sweat sometimes..but it's not as bad as the other two things.
Something is seriously stuck in my throat, and just won't come out unless..I..well..yea..how do I say it? umm..pray to the porcillan goddess upstairs, and I really hate doing that. So I'm not sure what to do.
In better news, I did go to classes today, and my ESEC teacher is amazing and letting me have as much time as I need to make up the work. She saw me in class and said:" Wow Jen you still look sick, just take care of yourself, and don't rush yourself, get it the work into me when you can." Yeah..I'm happy about that. I'm going to try to get the Lesson Plan done for Wednesday, and do the other project this weekend.
I should probably read some Holocaust chapters before bed tonight, since I have a quiz on Wednesday.
::sigh:: I really need to tone down my priority for prettyenough___. I try to be all over it, yet I should be focusing on my schoolwork more. grrrrr I really hate myself sometimes. It's like everything now a days is a distraction to me, and I thought with being back on my meds would fix that. Maybe my body does need to get used to them again, and I just need to stop distracting myself with everything. hmpf..I don't want to be sick and tired of school just yet...eventhough sometimes I swear that's what's going on.
Marc wasn't feeling good this evening, so he went to bed early. -_- I hope he's not catching what I had....ugh. Still I miss him already. Summer needs to be here now...so I can finally see him, however I'm getting worried. I keep thinking of when I can see him, and then I don't know what to do, because I want someone to come with me. Marc insists that he's paying for my plane ticket...so if I go by plane, who ever comes with me has to get money for that too. Plus I need money for the hotel room for us. So if I do that it's going to have to wait till at least the beginning of August, and I don't want to wait that long.
I know his mom said it would be okay for him to come here, if he went to my house, and my mom said it's okay with her. But there is again just one problem - I really don't live at home anymore. Well I do..but especially starting may I really won't, since we'll have the house in Keene. Plus it's not like I can go home for a few days, so he can come over, because one week after this semester gets out, I start my next semester for the summer where I have to take two classes, plus I'll be working. I know I can take a week off from work, so then I'd just have to go to class...but if I have class I can't be at home so Marc can come.
ugh I just want this to work, so Marc and I can finally meet and see if what's there between us online, is also the same in person. I just want to know...Yes of course I'm scared that when we meet we may not click like that, I know that we'll still be friends, but with Marc however...the fact that there are just soo many things that already make us click online, really makes me hope that maybe I'll really get lucky this time. It's like we talk sooo much, and just want to see each other so badly, and hug each other...the sound of having to wait another 5 or so months seems forever. ::sigh:: it really does..
I wish we'd get another vacation break besides Spring Break...I really do.
Anyway..I know I've been meaning to post the wacko high convos I had last week..and I will..eventually, but I'm just sorta down...so here are some pics coz I felt like it..
This is actually me last Wednesday, my face temp was so hot, that I was trying to cool myself off on the cold wall, yet I'm still wearing a sweater because I was freezing..yeah I was sick.
...hope you liked them
So that's it...I'm going to bed now..too late to read. Gonna go cuddle and sleep and hopefully dream of something nice and happy with Marc, coz I miss him. Comment away..leave some coz it cheers me up..
*huggles* and love you!
night night everyone ♥