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I'm pulling out my hair:
He loves me/He loves me not
He wants to be with me/He doesn't
He wants to see me/He won't see me for days
He'll be around to be a father/He wants to sent me money instead
I love him/I hate him
He needs to make up his damn mind about whether he is going to be with me or not. I hope the answer is yes, but I can't have him teetering like this all the time. It frustrates me, hurts me, confuses me. I miss the way things were. I know realistically they're never going to be that way again, but I still cross my fingers hoping for a positive outcome. I'll see him today. I don't want to bombard him with this emotion, but this is something that tortures me when I'm unsure about it. This really isn't the time to play games or for him to complain about the life he wants to have. The moment he told me he wanted me to keep the baby, he made the decision that that was going to be the way his life was going to be from that point forward. He can't back out of this now because I can't. If it were something we could both step away from, then the circumstances would be different.
But they're not. He needs to realize that.
I think he's more bipolar than I am sometimes.
He loves me/He loves me not
He wants to be with me/He doesn't
He wants to see me/He won't see me for days
He'll be around to be a father/He wants to sent me money instead
I love him/I hate him
He needs to make up his damn mind about whether he is going to be with me or not. I hope the answer is yes, but I can't have him teetering like this all the time. It frustrates me, hurts me, confuses me. I miss the way things were. I know realistically they're never going to be that way again, but I still cross my fingers hoping for a positive outcome. I'll see him today. I don't want to bombard him with this emotion, but this is something that tortures me when I'm unsure about it. This really isn't the time to play games or for him to complain about the life he wants to have. The moment he told me he wanted me to keep the baby, he made the decision that that was going to be the way his life was going to be from that point forward. He can't back out of this now because I can't. If it were something we could both step away from, then the circumstances would be different.
But they're not. He needs to realize that.
I think he's more bipolar than I am sometimes.