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Oh my gosh I am kind of worried about tomorrow. What if I go in there and make a fool out of myself. I am so good at that. I don't know why but I really would love to do well and be accepted. That would mean that six out of six accepted me. I know that my grades aren't as good as they could be. I probably haven't done enough stuff and am not smart enough to get in but if I could that would mean I have actully can do something. On top of everything I am going to the interview alone. I thought for sure my mom would be going with me. NO I have to drive down there myself, do the 20min interview and drive home. Hopefully I feel good afterwords or I won't be able to go home for awhile due to crying or trying to snap out of the daze I will most likely be in. GAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH I have to do well I just have to. On top of that I am getting worried about almost what time of the school year it is. This year is going to fast. DAMN!!!! Why did it have to come so fast? Yet I am excited about outdoor lab. I am not excited about spring break though. I am most likely going to Seattel to see my dads mom before she dies. WHY IN THE FREAKING WOLRD DO BOTH OF MY GRANDMAS HAVE TO BE POSSIBLE DIEING AT THE SAME TIME CAUSING ME TO SPEND EVERY LONG BREAK I HAVE HAD THIS SCHOOL YEAR VISITING THEM!!!! It is now officially an conspiricy. Damn them. Damn them both. Though I would love to see Alyssa if she would like to see me while I am there. It would make my spring break the best ever other than having to go see Grandma. GAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH I hate that lady. I am sorry I don't get along with my Grandma's that is putting it lightly. I am very tense right now. I did finish another wonderful book today though. Now I am starting on books from the countries I shall be seeing this summer. I am excited for this summer. Could it just start now and we skip the last part of the year, other than outdoor lab?