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i feel like dancing..dancing! ROFL! I swear...*shakes head*! Anyone wanna dance with me?! *grins and waits for a answer* hahaahaha i feel like i was just REBORN i feel cured to tiredness, no head-aches, no feeling over emotional like i must die...none of that nonsense. I FEEL HAPPY!!! YIPPIE!!! lol! I love my room everyone's giving me compliments on it and even my self *smiles*! But, i had the strangest dream last night and when i think about i have been having the strangest dreams of my whole life just this week and last IT'S WEIRD cuz their all about u sumhow! Last nights dream i do know what it meant but 4 sum reason i don't know if it's true or not but i woke up feeling it was real thatz how i have been feeling on all my dreams lately i mean LITERALLY!!! I didn't know most of the people but ur mom was there and ur sister and there were flying cars and everything was like it was all...*thinks 4 a sec* like it was in 20 yrs or so. But any ways, c me and u were suppose to hang out go out by ourselves and do sumthing special and u said u would meet me at my apartment but u never showed up ur mom and sis came over and said u went 2 a amusment park being confused about sumthing than we talked 4 a lil they said they would be right back but they never came back it was just me i was sitting down look outside of my porch and all of sudden i feel a quake a thunder and the building starts to shift and in the dream i'm on the toppest floor and well here's me hanging on 4 dear life on to the wall which doesn't work at all i try my best to stay still buti can't as the building comes collasping down on me and i'm on the last floor and oddly i woke up a couple of hours later everythings shattered but i'm in my apartment still it collasped in the last floor apartment. And i was there stirring to wake up i looks around there's walls messed up and one was close to falling on me than out of no where i saw this black cat coming towards me than it jumps up at this one window that was right above my head it batted it eyes at me sahked it's head towards the window and i went to get up opened the window and the cat crawled out i followed it when i got out i looked around it was desserted no one saw me and there right there was blank i didn't c anything else cuz i woke up in real life lol than i went back 2 sleep than i started dreaming again about the same thing it just continued it from a different spot i guess..here i was in a different apartment living again awake but hurt cuz of what i went through and no one even knows i'm alive. I saw the news if said about a girl dead by a building collasping on her and that she was the only one in the building at the time with the many floors the building had and manys rooms she was the only one. And she didn't survive they said they couldn't find her body but no one saw her if she did survive so the only sultion is that she didn't survive. When i heard the news i cried and i remembered that day me and kyle were suppose to hang out . But he went out to a amusment park..AN AMUSEMENT PARK. And ever since the accident no one knew i was alive i had no contact with anyone not even kyle an about 2 months already passed by the look of it. They kept writing newpapers on me and at cermonials 4 me finally one day i was walking down the street and i saw an old friend of mine and she was talking to ur mom oddly enough and she told her oddly enough that i survived that i wasn't dead like everyone says she said she saw me get out of the building but when i got out of the building i saw no one it was desserted and i stood there shocked cuz how could she know if i survived if no one was there and ur mom stoof there and put ur hand on my firends shoulder and said WHAT DO U MEAN SHE SURVIVED...she was killed that day i know if 4 a fact than my friend looked at her weird and ur momchanged the subject after that i got suspious of ur mom! When stalking her around when to c where ur sis was she got married and all. One day i had this doctor appointment which is the only contact i barely had in a long time and he asked me weren't u suppose to be dead i'm like u must be mistaking with sumone else he's like um ok...than i had my appointment he said i'll have ur results in a week so i wait a week still stalking ur mom and trying to get back to my old life trying to c if the people i care about most is still alive and breathing and if their healthy and ok. Well, a week goes by and i'm at the doctors again he has the TV on and i'm on it an old pic of me than the doctor looks back at me and he says I KNEW IT WAS U..i'm liks shhhhh please keep it down i don't want anyone knowing i'm still alive. Than he just preceded and pretended as though he didn't even c the TV he turned it off and than he talked to me. He said sumthing about being sick...than he said about having a tumor...than after a bunch of talking he finally said what he wanted to tell me he said i'm going to have a baby I'M LIKE WHATTTTTT...i look at him in his eyes and he nods than i remember the accident than i remembered kyle i started crying than and there. i almost fell on the floor, but the doctor helped me up and he asked y i was crying i said don't wry about it. And so he said u r 3 months pregnant im like how's that possible my weight hasn't changed and i don't look it and he's like sum younger females don't get much change when their pregnant i look at him and i tell him i'm not that young!! He's like i know! So i get out of the office and says i'll call u when to come for another check up alright and i wave my hand at him and leave. I sit in my apartment thinking about kyle and about r relationship and thinking if he's okay and whatz he up too?! So, i get curious and i look up the yellow pages and white pages try to looks for his last name found crissey so i looked for his first name strangly no first name than i see his mothers i looks at it said Sandy Crissey so i touch the letters of her name and think about that day on how she was over with Kaelyn at my apartment and how they said they would come back but they didn't i got suspious again and wondered really badly on how kyle was doing than i got afraid. I fell asleep when i woke up guess what happened...i was starring at a gun i looked up and it was sandy...i'm like sandy she pulls the trigger but sumone walks in and i look up and i saw who it was i shouted out their name they had a gun to pointed it at sandy i said NO STOP DON'T...CAN WE PLEASE TALK ABOUT THIS SANDY LAUGHS...the person who i saw was my friend my old friend wanna know who my friend was ashley..oddly enough ashley...but wanna know another weird part it wasn't ashley sh started to pick at her skin than she pulled off this mask and who i saw i just went in tears the person looked at me and smiled and said that i have been tracking her 4 months now she has been stalking u and trying to plan this that day of ur accident was the day i was going to perpose to u when she found out her plan wanted to go inaction when i found out i was to late than i thought u were dead so i went to ashley ur friend and she said it was alright for me to identify myself as her if it's 4 u and i stalked this women and i found out while walking one day with her getting to know her she welocmed me cuz she knew i was ur friend than she told stories about u i'm like ok than i left i went to look around where ur accident was i found this black cat it starred at me his eyes were speaking to me telling me answers than it hit me that she was alive that she was ok and living again. So, i invesgated this person here my own mother i couldn't beileve it. But, than i realized it i had to do what i had to do than i finally realize that i had to slip that u were still alive to her so i did and when i did i knew what she was gonna do get rid of u so i followed her here. And i'm not going to let her ruin what we had and what we still have as we walks towards me and sits down and puts his hand on my face and kisses my lips his mom looks at us disusted. I look up at her at i tell her that u really r the worst person i ever knew u never knew what love was did u well let me show u i pick up kyle's gun i point it at sandy and sandy drops her gun and a tear comes down her eyes and she sits down on my table i sit down on my couch and so does kyle my gun still pointing at her and i tell her how much of a person kyle is and how much of a person i am and how much love kyle showed towards her but she never gave it back to him once and i put down the gun i give her gun back to her and point it myself and i tell her if u want to kill me even after what all i said and done for ur baby than me my guest but i want u to know i didn't just cared about kyle i cared for ur other child and i even cared about u yes mom i did i even cared about u i would shoot myself her and now 4 u why cuz i care 4 u i love u but like i said it's ur choice and ur good at making choices so here's another choice for u to make or for once would u like sumone else to make it for u kyle sits there and stars at me impressed i don't look at him i keep starring at sandy who's crying now drops the gun again and says i give up kyle i should of said this a LONGGG time ago i lvoe you son ur my baby and she gets up and gives him a hug i smile at her kyle impressed of what just happen he does in shock. I look at her and than she gives me a hug and says and i love you too and she sits me back down but she sits in between the both of us and puts a arm around both of us and crys and tells us that u guys were meant to be don't let anyone tell u toherwise. Than i woke up with happiness and with so much life inside of me. Than i just realized that it wasn't real i looked around and relaized that it was just a dream but it felt so REAL to myself i said! Goes to show u that sum people can change and that u would go on the end of the world for love and for sumone u care about.