and so he lives
ok so way too much time has passed since Ive last posted an entry. Nothing new really, Still single and not looking, probably wont be for a while, if ever.. I like it better that way. If something strikes me so be it.. but it just doesnt matter anymore.. I'd rather just accept whats happened and live with that. I had what I needed and well I couldnt hang on to it so I dont deserve anyone in my life (and I truly believe that)I think I have all the tools to make someone happy, but I am clinging so hard to an emotional attachment. I miss having my mandapanda, and ultimately I miss "her". yeah I know , gleaming sunshine over here lol, I'm not over it yet and I guess I'm the type of person that sticks on things for a really long time (about 10 months now). I went to Seguin a few days ago for something and drove past my old place Summers Bend, yeah sidenote to all, keep it in the past.. I cant help but to recall everything. Having her to hold, to talk to, and the hundreds of memories that come streaming through..I'm not convinced, its irreplacable. I'd almost rather her , be "the one". Thinks of the scene on Tombstone when Doc was dying and he tells Wyatt, "I was in love once".
On a much lighter note..I have to find ways to keep my heart off of the pain. I have a new job Ive been offered from one of my customers at work designing and building cabinets 2 maybe more nights a week in combination with my full time day job with Sprint. I think learning a useful trade would be different and fun, something to do anyway and hey it even pays well, I love hands on stuff. I'm going down to talk to the owner on Tuesday with one of my good friends Joey who is also interested and needs something, otherwise he's moving to Alaska in the icy tundra with his Dad soon, hope he's able to work to. Cant have that, Ive known him and his brother the last 22 years, would hate to lose a friend. I think the most fun Ive ever had in a job was as an apprentice electrician with Bexar Electric in New Braunfels over 3 years ago, I was also on new projects and had something new and interesting to be responsible for. I'm also going to be working closely with my mom on creating a website for her business with the money I'll be saving from working so hard, and knock on wood.. I think it is going to be a huge success, her clients have already been asking her for a website because they dont want to have to make second trips to buy the products she sells. We're going 50/50 on it.. I'm staying tuned for that, ecstatic about the idea of working on it and making it a hit. Actually putting some of my education to productive use woo lol I guess thats the most exciting part. Other then that, I think I may be moving to good ole San Marcos when my lease is up in July, I'm really stuck in a pickle with Sprint.. and cant transfer for another YEAR due to some events that happened. The money is really good there.. so I'm going to rough it out. (I really hate being bound by money) hate it, but I think of it as a gift, that may someday support my family if I ever did get around to that. Nothing too exciting yet to post, just staying productive and trying my best to take care of myself, no new memorable things really going on. =)
On a much lighter note..I have to find ways to keep my heart off of the pain. I have a new job Ive been offered from one of my customers at work designing and building cabinets 2 maybe more nights a week in combination with my full time day job with Sprint. I think learning a useful trade would be different and fun, something to do anyway and hey it even pays well, I love hands on stuff. I'm going down to talk to the owner on Tuesday with one of my good friends Joey who is also interested and needs something, otherwise he's moving to Alaska in the icy tundra with his Dad soon, hope he's able to work to. Cant have that, Ive known him and his brother the last 22 years, would hate to lose a friend. I think the most fun Ive ever had in a job was as an apprentice electrician with Bexar Electric in New Braunfels over 3 years ago, I was also on new projects and had something new and interesting to be responsible for. I'm also going to be working closely with my mom on creating a website for her business with the money I'll be saving from working so hard, and knock on wood.. I think it is going to be a huge success, her clients have already been asking her for a website because they dont want to have to make second trips to buy the products she sells. We're going 50/50 on it.. I'm staying tuned for that, ecstatic about the idea of working on it and making it a hit. Actually putting some of my education to productive use woo lol I guess thats the most exciting part. Other then that, I think I may be moving to good ole San Marcos when my lease is up in July, I'm really stuck in a pickle with Sprint.. and cant transfer for another YEAR due to some events that happened. The money is really good there.. so I'm going to rough it out. (I really hate being bound by money) hate it, but I think of it as a gift, that may someday support my family if I ever did get around to that. Nothing too exciting yet to post, just staying productive and trying my best to take care of myself, no new memorable things really going on. =)