a long time ago we used to be friends...
so the email i got on tuesday wasn't exactly unexpected. i figured sooner or later i'd get some sort of response to the things i'd been saying. i knew she was reading the blogs, and that's why i kept posting them. the really fucked up part is that the blog that was being referred to in the email was marked friends only. so......yeah....pathetic.
i don't know. this whole thing is beyond ridiculous, and i know it. i am so sick of "fighting" people who don't matter. i am so sick of feeling like i need to watch my back because i'm not sure who's just a few steps behind, getting ready to plunge a knife in it. i'm tired of doubting myself and my other friends. friends i've had for years. long before any of this most recent horse shit started.
i am sick of drama. i know it will come into my life now and then because, well, that's life. there's always going to be drama of some sort. that's the price you pay for having friends, or just a life in general. some shit is always going to be pissing you off.
the way i deal with the shit that bothers me is by writing. some people do it by leaving homosexual away messages with song lyrics in them. i am not one of those people. i use my own words to describe how i feel, thank you very much. i'm sick of defending myself and my choices to people who piss me off, and don't deserve an explanation. grrrr....
it's just so over. all of it. it needs to be done.
i don't know. this whole thing is beyond ridiculous, and i know it. i am so sick of "fighting" people who don't matter. i am so sick of feeling like i need to watch my back because i'm not sure who's just a few steps behind, getting ready to plunge a knife in it. i'm tired of doubting myself and my other friends. friends i've had for years. long before any of this most recent horse shit started.
i am sick of drama. i know it will come into my life now and then because, well, that's life. there's always going to be drama of some sort. that's the price you pay for having friends, or just a life in general. some shit is always going to be pissing you off.
the way i deal with the shit that bothers me is by writing. some people do it by leaving homosexual away messages with song lyrics in them. i am not one of those people. i use my own words to describe how i feel, thank you very much. i'm sick of defending myself and my choices to people who piss me off, and don't deserve an explanation. grrrr....
it's just so over. all of it. it needs to be done.