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i feel empty and sad right now.
i think my dad's taking everything too far. i feel bad that my family is spending the money of a dead (and terribly frugal) man of relatively little importance to us.
i'm ticked off at rickenbaker for taking off on everything. i'm sick of trying so hard.
i'm ready to have a life after school and i'm ready for a little bit of time to myself (imagine that).
i think about college entirely too often. it feels so good to be decided.
and i can't get some boy out of my head. he was at least a well-mannered cute boy with a good handshake. i wonder if he didn't ask for my phone number because i made a bad impression. i'm telling myself he was just practicing good judgment. i honestly think this is the first boy i've actually thought about since jake. i'm proud of myself, but at the end of the day i just want someone to cuddle with.
honest.
i think my dad's taking everything too far. i feel bad that my family is spending the money of a dead (and terribly frugal) man of relatively little importance to us.
i'm ticked off at rickenbaker for taking off on everything. i'm sick of trying so hard.
i'm ready to have a life after school and i'm ready for a little bit of time to myself (imagine that).
i think about college entirely too often. it feels so good to be decided.
and i can't get some boy out of my head. he was at least a well-mannered cute boy with a good handshake. i wonder if he didn't ask for my phone number because i made a bad impression. i'm telling myself he was just practicing good judgment. i honestly think this is the first boy i've actually thought about since jake. i'm proud of myself, but at the end of the day i just want someone to cuddle with.
honest.