R.S. - Resuliton(less) Stephenisms.
New Year's Resolutions
I actually got more of my resolutions checked off last year than I typically do.
Did that make it a good year? It had it's high points. But it was mostly... bleh.
I'm choosing not to make resolutions this year. Mostly because I can not think of where to go from here.
I look back, and review my life. Where does one go? When your 30. And you can honestly say, honestly believe, that every major life changing choice I've made.... has been the exact wrong one. Where does that leave me?
That's not me being moopy. That's honestly? Fact. I've next to nothing to show for my life. And regret almost every major change I've made in it.
I'm not sure. Perhaps I'll think of resolutions, once I figure out where to go from here.
"The battle's done, and we kind of won, So we sound our victory cheer. Tell me...Where do we go from here?"
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A better version of me...
So... introspection.... The year end question is this. Am a better person now, than I was a year ago? For honestly? That's ever my goal. To be a better person. To be a good person.
Someday, I'll die, and meet my maker. And have to present my life. At best, I don't want him/her to say it was a bad life. I'm not sure I have enough to say it was a good life though.
I'd be ok with purgatory, I think. After all, most of this life has been purgatory for me, in ways. At least I'd still be me.
But to the question at had. Am I better person now than I was a year ago. Or five years ago.
Well... that's an issue of balance, I suppose. I get less... excited now, than I used to. I don't post on message boards, or get in internet shouting matches with people anymore.
I've learned better, what my responsibilities are, and what they aren't. I used to stress about certain people, whether they were having a good time or not. And if they weren't, which they often weren't, I would take it as a personal condemnation. Today, I know I am not the world's baby sitter. I can not force anyone to be happy. And that's ok.
I care less than I used to. Which is a good... and a bad thing. On one hand, I take things far less personally now. On the other... well... apathy.
I guess in a way, this makes me a better person... with a footnote attached.
"You used to be OK and I liked you that way, But I don't think that I like you better"
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Tis the Season
I didn't want to put the Christmas decorations up at all.
But now I have to take them down. Bleh.
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The Last Bash
Towards the end of last year, I decided I was no longer going to WAR bash. It's a pointless exercise.
I, as a player, have only two major grievances against WAR.
A. The end of the Shard Quest.
and
B. The ransacking of Kinsley's estate by owners.
(Actually, there's a third, but I'm choosing to give certain plot/staff the benefit of the doubt)
Every other complaint I have, is merely policy disagreements. People can disagree. It's still America. That's fine. No need to get up in arms about it. But neither is it constructive to constantly harp upon it. So, I'm choosing to no longer do so.
My two grievances will never be agressed, and I've accepted that. So it is not constructive to harp on those either.
So, no more bashing.
Does that mean I'll be coming to a WAR event any time soon? Nope. But that's because I choose to as a consumer. I can buy a better product elsewhere.
But I'm not bashing.
Stick that in your tweet and smoke it.
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One more thing..
I always say, I only go to nero because... blah. I typically only have one reason: To hang out with my friends.
This year? I seek to find two reasons. To hang with my friends and... something.
So this year, I need a new reason to play nero. If I don't find it, well... I think 2012... will be the last of it.
So... it shouldn't be too hard to find an extra reason to keep showing...
Should it?
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Things to Do:
NCN Artwork
Plotline spreadsheet for the year.
Organize cloths (donate things to small)
Clean car
Take down Christmas Decorations - DONE
Write a short story about something or other (not sure what yet.)
E-mail Plot - DONE
Update Wepage
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anivair's OMFG thingie:
My Stats:
DreamOnS: Level 1 Elf Assassin (till spring, then I'm going scout)
height: 5'3". weight: 130 BMR: 1458.4 BMI: 23.03 BFP: 30.09% W-HR: 1
Skills: (workin' on it)
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Random LoLthingie of the Day:
http://icanhascheezburger.files.wordpress.com/2010/12/funny-pictures-new-computer-mouse.jpg
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Random Thing in my Youtube of the Day:
"For I have shot a man into space! And I'm driving him crazy, by forcing him to watch the worse movies ever made. We've all thought about it! But I had the guts to do it!"
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SK4nPc1h1NQ
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Umm... that's all.
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