some things never change

[dreadpiratekido]

i am very unhappy with my place in life right now. things arent bad, they are just everything i dont want, im living a life i hate. i wish i could change things, make things what i want them to be, be free to do what i want, when i want, see who i want. i hate it. again, its not a bad life, it just doesnt fit me right now. i feel like things are slipping through my fingers and slipping through the cracks; like when you cup your hands and try and hold water, it all just goes away. i just need to get through this fucking year. i hate watching everyone close to me go off to college, and me just sit here waving goodye, so i can go back to my high school and my homework and my curfew, none of which i follow or complete on time.

im already missing you...

i think i have a new motto for life, something to live by, a mantra, i guess: easy come, easy go. ive got to enjoy what i have while i still have it, live my life and not look back,