A night with the girls does wonders
Well, since I'm not sure how to club or bar I usually don't do those scenes. Instead this Saturday Angel and I went over to two dear friends of ours home and babysat for their amazingly behaved little girls. Any oppurtunity I get to spend time with this family I jump on as I am so relaxed, at peace, and never am overcome with anxiety in their company. The couple is so in love with one another, to watch them together and how they move so fluidly makes me smile and appreciate God for giving us our partners in life. The children are always well behaved, and for children under 10 that's a very hard order as I've seen so far. It's amazing to see parenting work so respectfully and the effect that it has on those around you. These girls are so much more intouch with their identities as girls, humans, children, and philosphy than I could ever had appreciated at that age and am still comming to learn to appreciate. our activity list was as follows: make valentines, paint nails, play my little pony board game, play barbies (inwhich the barbies ran a business of a high end furniture store with no clearance section because "they were out to make money on this" lol and the child and adult both ran the store with equal importance to customers and they targeted the customers appropiately (the woman for the adults and the child for the children) and they treated everyone with respect it was the coolest thing to watch) I don't remember my barbies being quite that equal and out for cash, my barbies were the ones who controled the house, had maids, and had the best things, lol and lots of partners, always in a communal situation with other people and I always dated the rockstar 80s barbies with blue and pink hair lmao. and there was always lots of sex involved and domestic work. hmmm....... anyway it was a beautiful feeling of ritual and tradition to paint nails for the girls, they watched every stroke with intensity and curiosity. Taught them how to brush the barbie's hair so it doesn't all fall out in huge clumps and how to clean their brushes with combs and hotwater and soap. ::giggles:: I felt like a woman when that happened, so connected and giving back and you know what I mean? I was amazed by the ease inwhich I did these things and how natural and maternal it all felt. It makes me feel more confident in my abilty to work with kids and my eventual abilty to bear the weight of child rearing. And no jessie, you are right on so many levels, not anytime soon. ::smiles:: Well I suppose that is enough on that note for sometime. Peace be with you and praise God for the blessing that the energy child bring and fill our lives with. Love and joy be with them throughout these tough years.