Well, I have THIS half...
I miss my best friend. His name is "Chesty le Rou" and i have known him since i was three. He is my other half. It's odd, because one usually uses that term min reference to their life-mate. But not me. It's Chesty. It's not until recently i realize how much i lean/ed on him and not just that, but how much he leans/ed on me. We propped eachother up. and now, we are a great distance apart and we are falling the exact same way. that would happen as long as i could remember: Chesty and i would relate similar situations we had and find that we behaved in the exact same way in our respective situations down to the thought. Likewise, we found that we sinned the same way. If we told one a sin, it would effect our strength toward that particualr sin. Like "Well, if Chesty's doing it..." or "Hmm, Draven's doing it, so..." And i found out that even thogh we are on opposite parts of the country, we're still at it. Some would call his weakness on our parts that we can't stand on our own without the other. I disagree. I thank God everyday that i don't need to feel alone in my life. That there is someone who feels the way i do, thinks like me, acts and reacts in a way i can understand like it came from a mirror. And i miss him. In a large way, he helped keep me up to date on who i was. We are eachother's measuring sticks. He was the one who, during those formative years, would say to me "Draven, brother, that's not you...what the hell are you doing? What's the matter with you? Be yourself." And likewise i was there to say to him "Chesty...try that again...with a little less bullshit, ok?" He was there with me when my brother died. I was five. He is God's replacement, his gift to me in exchange for the brother He took from me. Almost to say "I'll take Max, but here's 'Chesty'." And so it has been for fourteen years. But here i am so far away from my other half that i truly feel incomplete. So much so, that i feel i'm beginning to forget who i am. I imagine this is what it's like to have a twin, but to live in different states. He and i are not blood. We look nothing alike. But he is like another me, and i another him. We are family. We are brothers. And i miss him...alot.