I'm forcing myself to write here. I'm not losing interest, I'm just lazy. I have to get this speech done tonight, and I'm just not feeling up to it ( Read more... )

Um. Am back.

Camp was fine. The music is the most difficult it has been in a long time. Brahms fried my brain. Seriously. If I have to sing "Schlicksalslied" one more time my head might explode. Same with "Sensemaya". Waah.

I have shed many tears in pain, sadness, disappointment, humiliation, and anger, but I think today was the first time in most recent memory I shed tears because of resentment and hate. Hate of myself, Mrs. Dean, Rachel, Katie, and anyone else's name that was on that God damned call back sheet ( Read more... )

Today started out dismally. Not only did I go to the doctor and discover that my sore throat isn't a sore throat at all, I have an inflammation of the thyroid gland. And then they had to take blood for a blood test. And make no mistake, I hate needles with a bloody passion (no pun intended ( Read more... )

School was long. I got a II on speech. I was incredibly bitter at the chamber choir. I screwed up on the last song and got yelled at by a senior whose panties are obviously too tight (which is amazing because I would have sworn up and down she didn't wear any).

My life is so depressingly predictable sometimes, its pathetic.

Grr. Argh. Chamber singers.

What? Me, bitter?

Hell yes.

I have accomplished absolutely nothing today. No ficlets, no homework, no nothing. Just a stupid family Christmas party (at a gun club, yes, we are hicks) with stupid people and having me missing my friends (on and off line).

I just want to go to bed and skip right to Friday.

Have finished article and letter to the editor about Andrew Carnegie in three hours. Damn I'm good at this procrastinating stuff ( Read more... )

Why I'm in A Very Bad Mood:

1. No sleep (this is really okay with me mentally, I'd rather stay up and wibble with you all anyday ( Read more... )

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I got back to the sad news that Alphabet's (on the Good Ship) brother died this weekend from an asthma attack. I hate being so far from all my friends, even though she lives closer than most. Please keep her in your thoughts and prayers ( Read more... )