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Im interacting, Im functioning...no malaise per se. But I feel so disconnected from my own life right now. The cliche is that I feel like Im watching it go by, but that implies motion. I'll suddenly come to and be...suprised, I guess, that time has moved forward.
Theres the usual this and that, money woes, house in disorder, but I feel so uninvolved right now. Bordering on animosity towards somethings and people when really truly...I kid you not....are just fine, no different than usual. Some of the things Im rolling my eyes at are actually really good and Im a lucky person that they are good. Hell, Im really fucking lucky to have stability and "fine" along with "great".
Its spoiled of me to feel this way. It comes and goes thank goodness, instead of being one of my spells that go on for weeks like an unending downpour. If Im enjoying something and then the mood turns I will make a point of reminding myself that things are enjoyable. Should I have to do that?
Theres the usual this and that, money woes, house in disorder, but I feel so uninvolved right now. Bordering on animosity towards somethings and people when really truly...I kid you not....are just fine, no different than usual. Some of the things Im rolling my eyes at are actually really good and Im a lucky person that they are good. Hell, Im really fucking lucky to have stability and "fine" along with "great".
Its spoiled of me to feel this way. It comes and goes thank goodness, instead of being one of my spells that go on for weeks like an unending downpour. If Im enjoying something and then the mood turns I will make a point of reminding myself that things are enjoyable. Should I have to do that?