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10 more days until i leave to go back to school. i got my list of advisees today, which was really exciting. i realized how excited i was to get back to school. naturally, i havent done any shopping, but i decided im going to do most of it when i get back to new york. squirt cant fit too much stuff. she is a bug after all.
im finding myself very lonely at the moment. it happens after a break up, even if you have spent the whole summer apart. i miss knowing that at least one person cares about what i have to say. that i can call at 2 in the morning and not have any particular reason for doing so, and he wont get mad. i miss taylor a lot. i guess it happens most times when the break up isnt particularly gruesome. i suppose i am having second thoughts about breaking up with him. no, im not, im just an attention whore realizing that the world doesnt revolve around me. go figure. i feel like i need to cry, but im not exactly sure why. maybe it is just cause i havent cried in a while. sometimes i dont understand myself.
in other news. san fransisco is one of the most beautiful cities i have ever seen. if it wasnt so damn hilly and expensive i might actually consider living there. actually i would live there. it would just be necessary to have a car. and to get better at parallel parking....and to learn how to parallel park....on a hill. but seriously, san fransisco is one of the prettiest cities i have ever been too. and the hills were a part of it, no matter how annoying they were. we took a tour of alcatraz and looking back at the city from the boat and from the island was breathtaking. in the tour they talked about how much torture it was to see something so beautiful being so close, yet so far out of their reach. i suppose that wouldnt be to pleasant.
went to street there called haight street. apparently it is pretty famous. it is like a hardcore hippie street. i want to be a hippie. i think ive mentioned that. i bought 2 beautiful skirts, a couple rings,and a tapestry for my wall at school. the stuff there is awesome. went back to shop some more with just my little sister riri, and some guy came up and was like spare change for an extra pair of socks? and i looked at him like come on...he was maybe...20ish? maybe a little older. not much though. he looked completely clean and was wearing nice clothes. i swear he was high. i gave him a quarter cause it was in my hand and cause he was following us a little bit. then he asked if we were from there and we said no, we were from nashville, and he was like cool...wanna smoke? and i was like um, this is my little sister....and he was like oh, sorry. and we left. it was funny though.
saw a basset hound and it reminded me of chris. no one would get it except for him. too bad the summer is almost over. i think he's playing me anyway. oh well, a new year starts in 10 days. i dont want/need a boyfriend right now. wow, my mood has definitely changed since i started this post. strange how that happens.
gymnastics tomorrow! i couldnt walk for a week after the last practice. it felt SO good. i miss that sport soooo much it is ridiculous. i have GOT to find my wrist guards and my knee braces.
wow this is a semi long post for not having anything significant to say. i wish i could bs like that on my conference papers.
wow after reading this post i realized that when i write in this thing i write really short sentences, and that sometimes i write like i am 5 years old. im sure that gets annoying, sorry about that.
im finding myself very lonely at the moment. it happens after a break up, even if you have spent the whole summer apart. i miss knowing that at least one person cares about what i have to say. that i can call at 2 in the morning and not have any particular reason for doing so, and he wont get mad. i miss taylor a lot. i guess it happens most times when the break up isnt particularly gruesome. i suppose i am having second thoughts about breaking up with him. no, im not, im just an attention whore realizing that the world doesnt revolve around me. go figure. i feel like i need to cry, but im not exactly sure why. maybe it is just cause i havent cried in a while. sometimes i dont understand myself.
in other news. san fransisco is one of the most beautiful cities i have ever seen. if it wasnt so damn hilly and expensive i might actually consider living there. actually i would live there. it would just be necessary to have a car. and to get better at parallel parking....and to learn how to parallel park....on a hill. but seriously, san fransisco is one of the prettiest cities i have ever been too. and the hills were a part of it, no matter how annoying they were. we took a tour of alcatraz and looking back at the city from the boat and from the island was breathtaking. in the tour they talked about how much torture it was to see something so beautiful being so close, yet so far out of their reach. i suppose that wouldnt be to pleasant.
went to street there called haight street. apparently it is pretty famous. it is like a hardcore hippie street. i want to be a hippie. i think ive mentioned that. i bought 2 beautiful skirts, a couple rings,and a tapestry for my wall at school. the stuff there is awesome. went back to shop some more with just my little sister riri, and some guy came up and was like spare change for an extra pair of socks? and i looked at him like come on...he was maybe...20ish? maybe a little older. not much though. he looked completely clean and was wearing nice clothes. i swear he was high. i gave him a quarter cause it was in my hand and cause he was following us a little bit. then he asked if we were from there and we said no, we were from nashville, and he was like cool...wanna smoke? and i was like um, this is my little sister....and he was like oh, sorry. and we left. it was funny though.
saw a basset hound and it reminded me of chris. no one would get it except for him. too bad the summer is almost over. i think he's playing me anyway. oh well, a new year starts in 10 days. i dont want/need a boyfriend right now. wow, my mood has definitely changed since i started this post. strange how that happens.
gymnastics tomorrow! i couldnt walk for a week after the last practice. it felt SO good. i miss that sport soooo much it is ridiculous. i have GOT to find my wrist guards and my knee braces.
wow this is a semi long post for not having anything significant to say. i wish i could bs like that on my conference papers.
wow after reading this post i realized that when i write in this thing i write really short sentences, and that sometimes i write like i am 5 years old. im sure that gets annoying, sorry about that.