so grayzay inspired myself...
first off, i would like to thank the wonderful bethany for making my journal as ab-fab as it is. muchos monudos gracias beth.
SO reading grace's post about her dad got me thinking about my mom. my mom has never been one to actually blow up at anyone on a regular basis. she tends to hold things inside, and let them bottle up. and when she finally does explode, it takes about a week of the silent treatment to let her get it out of her system. we used to have a really good speaking relationship, but now she doesn't care what happens in my life. all she ever cares to talk about it herself, her HORSE, or dogs. and i know what you may think..."maybe you should try talking to your mom" and believe me i have. first i brought up school...nothing...then friends...nothing...then boys...nothing current events, movies, shows, anything i could think of...NOTHING its not that she ignores me, she gives me simple responses like she doesnt care. she also doesnt seem to like that i'm not conforming. shes constantly asking me questions like "well don't you want to look like grace?" or "don't you want to dress like kelsey" but she asks in them in a sarcastic tone, as if shes trying to test me, so that i'm not copying mes amis. but when i wear something that shes never seen before, she acts like i'm an alien, and that i'll never be accepted in life. so excuse me if i don't pull my shorts up to my belly button, and excuse me if i don't dress like you mom. excuse me if i don't like riding, and excuse me if i have a better relationship with my dad. excuse me if i have a social life. excuse me if i'm doing better in school than you were at my age, and excuse me if you can trust me now. and please. excuse me if i don't cling to my mommy anymore.
SO reading grace's post about her dad got me thinking about my mom. my mom has never been one to actually blow up at anyone on a regular basis. she tends to hold things inside, and let them bottle up. and when she finally does explode, it takes about a week of the silent treatment to let her get it out of her system. we used to have a really good speaking relationship, but now she doesn't care what happens in my life. all she ever cares to talk about it herself, her HORSE, or dogs. and i know what you may think..."maybe you should try talking to your mom" and believe me i have. first i brought up school...nothing...then friends...nothing...then boys...nothing current events, movies, shows, anything i could think of...NOTHING its not that she ignores me, she gives me simple responses like she doesnt care. she also doesnt seem to like that i'm not conforming. shes constantly asking me questions like "well don't you want to look like grace?" or "don't you want to dress like kelsey" but she asks in them in a sarcastic tone, as if shes trying to test me, so that i'm not copying mes amis. but when i wear something that shes never seen before, she acts like i'm an alien, and that i'll never be accepted in life. so excuse me if i don't pull my shorts up to my belly button, and excuse me if i don't dress like you mom. excuse me if i don't like riding, and excuse me if i have a better relationship with my dad. excuse me if i have a social life. excuse me if i'm doing better in school than you were at my age, and excuse me if you can trust me now. and please. excuse me if i don't cling to my mommy anymore.