Nov 24, 2008 23:37
Sometimes I feel like doing everything is so complicated that I get paralyzed before I accomplish anything. Take establishing myself as an independent young woman. Step one: move out. Okay. But this area is really expensive and I have no cash. Ergo, I should get a job. Well, I have a job, but it's not enough to live on. So I need a better job. I'm getting so impatient for one of these "better" jobs to come through. I've been waiting for months now. And truth be told, I'm not actually interested in working at a bank, or in retail (no matter how high end it is!) It's just a bandage because I'm still figuring things out. It seems like anything I'd like to do has steps that I'm not ready to take. I want to feel like I'm living, but everything is so controlled.